#42 Questions Again

1. selfie
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2. what would you name your future kids?
Well boys would definitely be Tuukka and/or Robin, at least those are my favourite boy names, also Lauri is really nice. I don't really know about girls, Chaerin would be cool but its a Korean. Maybe Sanni or Jannika.

3. do you miss anyone?
No.

4. what are you looking forward to?
That the first school year is over.

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
I don't think that someone can always make me smile but maybe my brother gets to closest.

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
No, its actually really easy for me.

7. what was your life like last year?
I definitely knew less about everything, I was more unstylish and I dunno really.

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
Maybe, at least I cant remember.

9. who did you last see in person?
Well my brother but if him then Julia.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes.

11. are you listening to music right now?
Actually I'm not but I guess its because I'm tired and I'm going to sleep soon so it would probably just annoy me.

12. what is something you want right now?
To get rid of my body hair.

13. how do you feel right now?
Pretty normal, tired.

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
Few weeks ago maybe when Julia left to Vaasa oh wait no my mom hugged me yesterday.

15. personality description
I am happy person most of the time and positive and I have good sense of humor. I know what I stand for and I wont let anyone to change that. I am patient. I have strong opinions and i like to bring them up. I am pretty shy, I don't really talk to people I don't know so well mostly because I cant figure out anything to talk about. I don't get mad easily, I might seem mad but usually I don't feel any anger in me, except if my brother is annoying me.

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?
Yes.

17. opinion on insecurities.
You should definitely try to do something for them and maybe talk to your friends about them (which I don't do) so that they don't hit your insecurities.

18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?
Maybe something but in some points I'm satisfied how the things are now than a year ago.

19. have you ever been to New York?
No.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?
That would be Rita Ora - I Will Never Let You Down.

21. age and birthday?
I am 16 and I was born 9.9.1997

22. description of crush.
I don't have on right know (surprisingly) but let me tell about his one boy. In my opinion he was perfect: he had nice hair, he was good looking and slim. He had just a little body hair like on his legs (I guess he had in armpits and on cock too). He was really smart and good at school and the same time athletic, and also funny.

23. fear(s)
Spiders and afterlife.

24. height
182 cm.

25. role model
Girls of 2NE1 are my biggest inspiration and role models but I also look up to many many more celebrities.

26. idol(s)
I have too many of them but lets mention Teen Top, Colin Farrell, Justin Bieber, 4Minute, BIGBANG etc. etc.

27. things i hate
Angsting, stupid people, people who treat me badly.

28. i'll love you if...
You make feel good.

29. favourite film(s)
Eight Below, Elektra, The Rise Of The Guardians, many many many animation movies etc.

30. favourite tv show(s)
Prison Break, Lost, The Vampire Diaries, Revenge, Glee, etc.

31. 3 random facts
I have never had an crush on girl.
I see porn stuff in public very often.
I love watermelon.

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?
Girls because kpop and Japan fans.

33. something you want to learn
To speak Russian and draw.

34. most embarrassing moment
I'm sure that there is a more embarrassing moment but let me tell two. We were watching X Factor and I said with great confidence that Melanie Amaro will perform with Fifth Harmony cause its her song that they were singing but it was Demi Lovato. That song, Give Your Heart A Break, is nowadays one of my favs. Then when I was younger, we were still living in Helsinki so its was before 6th grade. My brother acted that he went out but he only opened up the door and closed it so I thought he left and I went to a gayporn Christmas calendar and he saw me go there and laughed, then he really left. He probably told everything to Elias cause that's what he does...

35. favourite subject
Probably English but history is a good two.

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?
Live in Japan, be a singer, learn how to draw and also get rid of most of my body hair, sorry had to take four.

37. favourite actor/actress
Paul Walker, Colin Farrell, Chris Hemsworth were first to come in mind.

38. favourite comedian(s)
I don't really have one.

39. favourite sport(s)
Badminton and tennis.

40. favourite memory
School trip to France and Switzerland.

41. relationship status
Single and will be for a long time.

42. favourite book(s)
I only read comics.

43. favourite song ever
2NE1 - I Am The Best.

44. age you get mistaken for
I haven't really heard any.

45. how you found out about your idol
2NE1 on Kids react.

46. what my last text message says
"You don't answer".

47. turn ons
Sweatpants, caps, tattoos, thighs, men.

48. turn offs
Black men, hairy, ugly.

49. where i want to be right now
In the bed with a boyfriend.

50. favourite picture of your idol
Gonna throw it in the end.

51. starsign
Virgo (Virgin) and proud of it!

52. something i'm talented at
Learning maybe..?

53. 5 things that make me happy
Music, men, porn, fantasies, yummy food.

54. something thats worrying me at the moment
How do I survive this last timetable.

55. tumblr friends
Few of them have it but they don't really use it much these days, actually at all.

56. favourite food(s)
Bacon pasta, sushi, spinach crepe, cakes and stuff like that.

57. favourite animal(s)
Ducks and pandas.

58. description of my best friend
My brother is almost like me the end.

59. why i joined tumblr
Because people wanted me to join.

60. ask me anything you want
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#41 To Sweden Ey?

Hello.

Nea was saying in WhatsApp that se is tired of this roller coaster relationship with Tommi so why she just wont say goodbye? They are dating but at the same time they aren't. May I just ask what the fuck is that kind of relationship? YOU ARE NOT EVEN DATING SO DON'T SAY THAT YOU KINDA ARE BUT KINDA AREN'T. If you would be dating you would have feelings for each other and if someone asks are you dating you say yes. And I'm pretty sure that Nea wants to "break up" when its time for sex since Tommi is pretty large person. People why in the fucking hell are you so complicated? Then Julia decided to take that conversation into private chat, so once again I got sweeped away - thanks a lot. I haven't answered to any messages since.

Henna and Vili asked me last night if I would like to join them and go to Sweden. Henna's family is going to Sweden to work I guess and they have two more beds in their camper so Henna decided to ask Vili I guess and they asked me, which was kinda surprising since they could have asked Miia or Jere, I think that others wouldn't have got to go and since Vili was going, me, his seoulmate, was the only option. :) I guess it will be cool but since there is six people, I don't know how we are going to shower and how about internet. But we'll see if they even go.

This weekend was nice, I learned to dance Rocking till the end and now I know how to dance slowly so I have to learn to dance it fast. I also played Final Fantasy and its getting annoying since I cant beat those monsters and i have to buy tons of potions and stuff. And my brother is an asshole, he keeps hitting me all the time with no reason and even if say stop he continues like oh my fucking god I will lose my mind because of that like is he sick or what?!

#40 Don't Want The Shoulder Now Wont Get It Later

Hello.

Easter vacation was and went. I didn't really do much, mainly played Final Fantasy and was swinging. I have to say what the fuck, when I was swinging on Easter some kids just came and left like all the time. First one of them was shouting this song "Tuomas Kauhanen - Pummilla Tallinnaan" and oh my gosh it sounded horrible. Then he came to next to me to swing and started doing it there like are you trying to impress me? Well you totally failed, I was like go to hell you put shame on us both. Then they left and I was like hallelujah but then they came back, then they left and came back again etc. and every time they brought a new toy or something like that, Jesus Christ.

I deleted Tinder only because it wasn't working. I downloaded it again but it just kept searching for people and I even couldn't look my contacts I already had made. Not that I had anyone to keep there but I ran into this hot Estonian basketball player and I wished to see if we had a match but I cant do that anymore. Instead of that I downloaded this app called Hot or Not. I thought that I wouldn't do anything with it so I deleted it. But when I looked at my email I saw that people had liked my pics there and I could use it on computer, but its irritating that I cant see them unless I like their photos.

Miia said in the chat that if you cant speak Swedish, you cant get a job in Finland. Well I immediately exploded and wanted to say back to her so much and my blood was boiling but I hold it back and only said that yes you can. Then I said that my relatives don't speak it and they have jobs. She said that she knows where my parents work and she doesn't give a compliment about that (enkä kauheesti kehu). Like what the fuck are you trying to say? She didn't even answer when I asked, bitch. A fucking job does not depend on knowing Swedish stupid bitch, it just isn't reasonable and it would be very stupid and just for fucks sakes. That is the most stupid thing I have ever heard. Why is she such an idiot :')

 Then for the last thing which I believe I have wrote about it earlier. We were just sitting outside and talking that Julia should stop cutting. Then Nea was like "I don't know should I tell this" and Julia was like "Get in(side the school)" and I was like no and Nea kinda yelled that could you just go. Well I went and I even filled that bitches Julia's water bottle. Like you cant tell that to me? I'm just here and when I'm not needed I can just be swept away? I wont take that, I will totally ignore your fucking complains from now on, if you cant say something to me but you can to Julia then don't say nothing at all. Then they came back to the class and Nea said that Julia cant tell this to anyone like shut the fuck up, don't talk about it infront of me if you didn't wanna do so. Why my "friends" are such bitches..?

Now Julia asked for money, yeah I'm needed in this situation pfft yeah right.

#39 Naughty Disney Prince's

Hello.

You may have seen these pics of Disney prince's in a more porn view and I ran into them again today and I decided to throw them here since I liked them a lot. I made as an top twelve list, enjoy. I left some out cause I didn't like them.

#38 Languages

Just For Fun Cause I Can

1:Your native language.
In papers it is Russian but I cant even speak it so its Finnish.

2:Which languages you know.
Finnish and English and also little bit of Russian.

3:Which languages you are learning, or want to learn.
I’m learning English and Swedish (because Finns have to and I hate the language). I would like to learn Russian since half of my cousins are Russian and also French would be nice, I actually learned it 2 years but I can hardly remember anything. Japanese, Korean and Mandarin would also be cool to learn.

4:Does anyone in your family speak a language that you don’t?
Yes, my mom speaks Russian and dad Romanian.

5:Your favourite language to listen to.
Japanese!

6:Your least favourite language to listen to.
Swedish.

7:Your favourite word in your native language.
I have no idea honestly.

8:Your favourite word in your second language(if you know one).
Well I would count this as Russian and it would be морковка (morkovka) and it means carrot, only because it sounds so cute and funny and its a carrot duh.

9:Your favourite word in a language you don’t really speak.
Well maybe 멘탈은 붕괴 (mental-eun bung-goe) is Korean and means mental breakdown or/then menbung but I don’t know what it actually means but maybe something related to mental breakdown.

10:A list of your favourite words in any language.
Pass.

11:A song you like in a language other than English.
2NE1 - I Am The Best.

12:If you could pick one language to learn automatically without having to work for it, which language would you choose?
Oh my god, this one is really hard because I have to choose from Russian, French, Mandarin, Japanese and Korean… I really don’t know which one I would choose but it would probably be one of the Asian languages.

13:Have you ever seen a whole movie in a language you don’t understand?
Yes, in Russian.

14:A language you like, but wouldn’t put the effort into learning.
Any of the languages I already mentioned.

15:Write a short introduction of yourself in a language other than English.
Finnish: Hei, olen Andrei, 16 vuotias. Asun Suomessa ja opiskelen merkonomiksi. Tykkään peleistä, animesta ja mangasta, musiikista, tanssimisesta ja valokuvaamisesta.
English: Hi, I’m Andrei, 16 years old. I live in Finland and I study at the business college. I like games, anime and manga, music, dancing and photographing.

#37 Google Kill Yourself

Hello.

I was running out of space on my phone so I decided to delete some shit and I deleted stuff that I shouldn't have. All my pictures disappeared but I got some new pics on my phone... Pictures from Picasa and from this blog so it gave out that I have an album there which is named "Bad Boy Diaries" like if someone would see that what they would think and ask. Even more horrible is that there were some gay pictures and I certainly don't want anyone to see them. Well I tried but I couldn't delete those pictures so I got really mad and frustrated and tried to separate my blog and my phone - couldn't do that. Then I removed the pictures from Google+ but then my pictures from these text disappeared... How mad was I. Well then my last option was to make a new Google account and I kicked my last account out from this blog but the album still stayed in my phone with one not picture - nothing bad but I cant just leave the album there. I put my phone back to the factory default settings: I lost every app, some songs and numbers but I took everything up so I didn't forget anything. But now I have new versions of Twitter and Instagram and for gods sakes they are ugly, why cant you keep the old ones or even make a good layout? Mental breakdown is coming gurl.

Then today we got some Estonian visitors who I guess live in Finland. We had to look out for the little boys for a while and for gods sakes that was awkward, the two year old couldn't speak so I didn't know what he wanted. I even had to help him down the stairs. Then dad said that I have to give the little one some plushes and I did gave him two: my cat plush which I had when I was very little and a little husky. Well those freaking kids stole them, I DID NOT gave them permission to take them... They even left their panda plush to us, a hostage I say. It smells weird. I will have them back or I wont give back the panda even tho I don't want it. Luckily we didn't have to look up for them long so I could play Final Fantasy X-2.

Then few random things I have to write. Bogi talked about army and I said that I don't want my hair to be cutted and then he said that I could take care of my hair problems there. What the fuck idiot. Its two years for army and I think I can take care of my hair in that time and I don't need a fucking haircut all the way from army shut the fuck up.

Then about Miia. She said that she would start vlogging long time ago but nope she haven't even started. She said that it has been busy and that she wasn't feeling like filming, especially when I ask about it and give pressure on her. First of all I am the only one who asked about it and only two times in a long time of period and thats how its going to be, people ask you to do those videos and since you had a schedule you have to stick in it - which you haven't done. In my opinion don't even start doing those videos because you cant even start when you decide so and I think that at your house you don't even have proper times to film so your career is doomed before you even started.

And Vili, if you have problems you cant always expect me to ask is everything alright and beg the answer from you. I'm getting tired of that so please, share, if you have something to stay. Otherwise I don't care anymore. And Miia said that I have gone into a worse direction like bitch I have only gone into a better one, you have changed and not very well. Cant even take a word "whore" as a joke like where is your sense of humor? When I get a chance I have to read from Vili's or Miia's phone what they have talked about me. Miia said that she talked about this with someone but she didn't say with who but I'm not stupid - I know that she talked with Vili.

And now apparently why trust place where I removed background costs now... Bitches.

#36 Questions With Colin Farrel

I decided to do this question thing just for fun because I often find myself doing these in my mind when I find them on my Tumblr dashboard.

A - Available?
Sexy, Free & Single I'm ready to bingo, aka yes.

B - Birthday?
Its 9.9.1997

C - Crushing on?
No I don't really have a crush at the moment since very crush has been a fail so I haven't found anyone else to have a crush on.

D - Drink you last had?
Tea with milk.

E - Easiest person to talk to?
I don't speak about personal things to anyone because I feel like they are not worth it so... For easy things maybe my brother.

F - Favourite song?
All time favourite song is 2NE1 - I Am The Best.

G - Grade i hated?
Whole grade school and half of the 7th grade.

H - Hometown?
I was born in Vuosaari, Helsinki and I lived there for 13 years but now I live in Mäntsälä and I prefer this place more.

I - Icecream flavour?
Licorice and pear are my favourites I think.

J - Jellybean flavour?
I have no answer for this.

K - Killed someone?
Nope.

L- Longest friendship?
Of course my brother but maybe with Elias or Susanna tho we don't speak much these days.

M - Milkshake flavour?
My mom always makes banana flavoured milkshake so banana.

N - Number of siblings?
Two, twin brother and step big brother.

O - One wish?
That I could get rid of all my body hair and from places I want.

P - Person who called me last?
Blocked number hah nice try.

Q - Question your always asked?
How is my last name spelled.

R - Reason to smile?
School is soon over.

S - Song i last sung?
Let It Go! :)

T - Time you woke up?
Woke up 8:10 am but I rose from bed 20 minutes after.

U - Umbrella colour?
I don't own one.

V - Very best friend?
My brother, it used to be Vili but he kinda betrayed me so I don't consider him as an good friend as my brother but of course I wont tell this to him so that he wont get mad and so that I don't have to explain myself.

W - Which celebrity i’d marry?
Taeyang, Minsoo, Jay Park, Colin Farrel and so many more hot guys which I cant remember at the moment.

X - X rays i had?
At least my teeth, at least I cant remember anything else.

Y - Your last time you cried?
Maybe today but because of happiness, I don't remember when was the last time I cried because I was sad.

Z - Zodiac sign?
Virgo and I like it! (:

#35 No No No

Hello.

First of all, I'm sick and tired of all the fucking "dating sites" that I have registered on. Tinder first of all, I only get few matches there, one didn't reply, one I didn't even message because I changed my mind about him based on his only picture and same friend. One is apparently straight and the last one hasn't messaged me in a while so fuck me. Then are these awesome sites like Qruiser and Planet Romeo where only old men who haven't found anyone and now they are desperately hunting for younger meat who are not fucking interested in old ugly fat hags. And when you finally find someone at your age from people who are too ugly, too far away or are not interested in you they don't have a picture and when you finally see their face you just wanna start to cry because you have been betrayed again. I found this one 17 years old guy who seemed like an OK guy but he didn't have a picture of himself, and when I finally got to see it in his Kik Messenger I just immediately wanted to turn it off and bury myself in my bed. Seriously I'm gonna delete those fucking accounts soon if this wont get any better, and just wait for some in real life.

Then for a happier but also sad stuff, well I don't see it very sad because I didn't create any big emotions towards him. One of my new classmates is a really good looking guy called Jerry. He is just the perfect boy with his blonde nice hair, cap, long sleeved shirt and jeans. He looks badass enough but not in stupid way, he also seems very sweet guy, in his cap there is written "one love" and wow I just loved that, scenarios just popped up my mind immediately. I could have one those caps. But I guess he has a girlfriend based on the comments in his Facebook profile pictures.

Lets talk about Finns then, well more specifically about my 1BKF friends. They are doing it again, they only speak about their own problems and do not notice anyone else. First someone is like "I'm worried about this test" and then someone "answers" to this by saying "oh our gym class was so much fun" or "I'm hungry" and stuff like that. Then there's these situations where someone says something and people see it but they don't reply. As an example I messaged something and few people saw it but they didn't say anything until someone else came and said something else like thanks a lot bitches. It makes me kinda mad when Sara asked in the chat "what is your problem" and put a sad face but no one didn't notice her or asked what do you mean, I would have wanted to know but I didn't want to bring it up later on. Now everyone are angsting there and I just decided to not to notice them so ta ta ~.

I got new grades yesterday: from physics and chemistry I got T1. I thought that the test went better than that but I guess that they didn't after all. From Finnish I got K3 and English course called foreign cultures I got H2. Good side: I only have about 30 days of school left without counting in weekends and holidays, I can do it even if it includes the bitch Swedish teacher! 

Also a very nice thing that my mom decided to remember us with chocolate Easter eggs, as an Orthodox I think that Easter should be celebrated somehow since its very important holiday to us and chocolate Easter eggs is the best way to do so. Ruohomunia... ㅋㅋㅋ

#34 Losers

Hello.

So this is just a random text of random shit. First of all, my dad was talking some shit about something that I don't even remember what was it about and I didn't even listen cause I have already gotten enough of his nonsense that I just don't care. He was talking about something our Internets (computer and phone) and he asked why we need internet in our phones and if we have internet in our phones then we don't need computers... First of all: MY PHONE CONNECTION COSTS WITH INTERNET AS MUCH AS IT DID WITH MY LAST PHONE WITHOUT INTERNET. And its not the fucking same thing, my everything is in my computer just OH MY GOD I CANT EVEN SPEAK PROPERLY WHEN I THINK ABOUT THIS. NEVER EVER SAY THAT TO ME AGAIN OR HEADS WILL BE FLYIN. Then he even said that maybe we would have hobbies if we wouldn't have computers. I DO HAVE HOBBIES. One of them is writing this diary blog, photographing and dancing. So I need computer for all of those, writing this, a place where I can put my photos and share them with the world and I learn dances from YouTube so fuck you, don't fuck with homeboy especially when I'm a Virgo. He even said that we should even go for a walk, like don't you know me? I go very often outside for many hours to swing so I'm breathing fresh air what the fuck dude. For the end he said that when we get a job we have to pay for our internet, like fuck I'm gonna stay here then no way. I'm not gonna stay here with a shitty connection where I cant have my own privacy sorry. For the end of this rage: he paid his loan from me and now I can finally buy manga. But he said that we need new shoes for summer... I HAVE SHOES LIKE WHAT THE FUCK AGAIN. They always make us buy clothes that we DON'T NEED and then they are amazed when they have no money and they are saying that we will have hard time when they can't even take care of their money Jesus Christ. I guess that it wasn't the end of rage huh... 

A hot man between here hehe. Look how hot he is! I need to know which movie this is from! x_x

Then some random shit. I took some comics and a movie from our school take away shelf. Two manga's: Tokyo Mew Mew part six I guess and Doors of Chaos part 1 - I haven't heard about it earlier. The movie was Aquamarine, I have seen it once or twice and I liked it so I decided to take it with me to a better home, also two Donald Duck comics for my brother.

I also got an answer in Tinder for the first time, I don't know why he answered by saying "hello ;))" like are you looking for sex or what but I'm kinda disappointed that it was someone who isn't that good looking and I don't even know if I have an interest to keep up with him. Also that one guy called Erno (if I remember right) hes apparently looking for chicks so why did he come up at my Tinder? Maybe because his settings were shitty, frustrations after frustrations.

Then some shit talk about Swedish. We had our second lesson of Swedish on Friday and oh my god what kind of shit is that. Our teacher is such a bitch that it doesn't even make sense. She annoys everyone like I cant even explain it, she is just a simple bitch, talks like a bitch and she radiates bitchnes. I try to be as hidden and silent in the class as much as possible, I don't wanna say a word in that hell hole. Only seven weeks more, I hope I can manage that without getting a mental breakdown. Maybe just six because I guess I will skip those lessons and as many lessons as possible, fucking cunt.

And when I told my opinion in Instagram about Swedish in Finland I lost four followers, were they Swedes who took it personally and so they were a little cry babies and unfollowed me. I wrote there that I cant stand learning Swedish because I will never use it and if you are Swede who lives in Finland you fucking should learn Finnish. It wont be my problem if I cant help you in my future job. We'll see, we'll see...

I forgot to link this sugaring page here last time so that I will remember it, so don't mind it. I had to post those gifs cause hes so cute and hot at the same time + no one even reads this so its for my entertainment.

http://www.sunsugaring.com/

#33 Hottest The Vampire Diaries Boys

Hello.

Since The Vampire Diaries is one of my favorite TV-shows I decided to make a list of the hottest actors from it in my opinion. I mainly decided by how they look but in some cases I had to also think about their character and what kind of relationship I have with them. Please leave a comment of your favorites! 

10. Alaric Saltzman // Matthew Davis

9. Mason Lockwood // Taylor Kinney

8. Elijah Mikaelson // Daniel Gillies

     

7. Kol Mikaelson // Nathaniel Buzolic

6. Matt Donovan // Zach Roerig

5. Damon Salvatore // Ian Somerhalder

4. Stefan Salvatore // Paul Wesley

3. Klaus Mikaelson // Joseph Morgan

2. Jeremy Gilbert // Steven R. McQueen

1. Tyler Lockwood // Michael Trevino

#32 Swing

Hello.

I remembered that I go to school by ten just when I decided to go to sleep, and I still think that I didn't get enough sleep. Well I had to be all by myself there because Julia decided to have a migraine and the first lesson was Swedish... Did I already mention how much I hate it? Luckily we had a visitor and she was telling us about differences between Swedish and Finnish schools, tho she told it in Swedish so I didn't understand almost nothing. She told us that she can speak six different languages and one of them was Japanese. I wanted to ask if she liked manga and anime but I couldn't remember how to ask that in Swedish so i decided to keep my mouth shut. I was quiet as much as I could, only spoke when I had to.

Then we had a nice meal and I got to spend time with Niko without the girls, it was really nice. I didn't really find him attractive earlier but now I think that he is pretty cute. I thinks its because we didn't know each other so well and now we do know each other better that the looks barrier has gone down, I even fantasized having sex with him, riding him like a stallion. And I don't get why Julia is saying that Jimi is ugly and bad stuff about him. I think he looks cute and if he wanted to fuck with you so much, then isn't that just a good thing that he wants you? I know I would feel flattered. 

We then had our first salesmanship theory lesson. I have buy something paper thing again like I have money for that and also another book for another class. It was okey and stuff, we have eight works to do on the lessons since we have that class once a week and we only have eight weeks left for school. I hope that Julia wont screw everything up because we have to do those tasks in pairs and if she replaces me with Nea I'm gonna shoot her. I certainly wont give those tasks to her, tho I think that she will get them still somehow. I also got to leave earlier so I didn't have to wait an hour for next shitty train.

When I got home I went to the swings to check if they were back or not. I saw something there but I wasn't sure, when I walked closer and closer I started to see it and run the rest of the trip and there they were, they came back to me. I was so happy. Then I went back home and saw kebab and Fanta on kitchen table - good food made me even happier. I watched Black Widows and Nymphs on internet so I was even more happy. Then my dad made a fruit salad so I was even more happier, this whole day was just bunch of happiness. Maybe it was reward of the Swedish class and the whole school day?

 But when I went for swings at nine pm, I didn't enjoy it much - I don't know why and now my hands hurt. And I don't know what to with manga, I have to buy Weed but just for fucks sakes parents... I guess I will just buy those mangas.

#31 Timberlake

Hello.

I watched the movie called Friends With Benefits and Justin Timberlake was the second main actor in it. I didn't really like Justin or found him attractive earlier but this movie changed it all. You could see like everything of him except his cock and some hot sex scenes, like damn I think I fell in love with those abs. He also was so god damn cute and adorable that I even cant.

I couldn't wait to get to shower last weekend, my hair is freaking itchy, it started when I used my moms hair spray and just for fucks sakes. I think it even bleed. I also noticed that I'm having cheek hairs... Like I don't have enough hair already? Well after I got myself into better condition I got to wash my ass without feeling any pain. I also sprayed the shower water against my balls again. Oh my god it feels so good, makes full erection and looks so erotic when water is dripping on my torso. By the way Julia gave me her old straightener and I straightened my front hair a bit. Gotta try it again when I have more hair.

I looked up some info how to get rid off body hair. Laser was so fucking expensive that I wont even consider that anymore. All tho I found out another way: sugaring. You can buy the stuff you need for it for really cheap and do it at home with privacy. I will buy that as soon as I get the chance.

Today we met our new classmates, I don't like them. They are way too quiet and boring and just ugh, I could take my old class back if you don't mind, please. Also we saw "our stalker" again today. We figured out his name a long time ago, his name is Konsta. He looked so so so damn cute today, now that I have gotten over Aleksi I can start drooling him. He even lives at the same town as I.

I saw that Julia is using Tinder even tho she has a boyfriend. Like oh my god she had so many guy matches in her message place, like its unfair she doesn't even need them. And I cant even get a single answer from someone... and when she was going through the new guys she skipped so many cute looking guys and she didn't even look at their profiles...

Then for the end. People were like turn on the channel 4, 2NE1 will be on Top Model. Like fucking idiots get your facts straight. They're showing the 19th season right now and 2NE1 will appear on season 21 + I don't think that they will appear on first episode. Such facepalm.

#30 Bad Boys

Hello.

So apparently Aleksi has a girlfriend, Julia told me this. Finally I got to know which way he was swinging. Now I don't have to waste my time on drooling all over him and I can seek another man without feeling bad, not that I would feel bad if I'm looking up other options hah.

I decided to go to Qruiser and Planet Romeo again. I didn't want to go there because there really was no one I wanted to speak with so I was feeling anxious even thinking about those places. Someone in my age finally contacted me but he doesn't have any pictures of him and if I have to get disappointed again then for fucks sake's I'm gonna shoot somebody. 

I have also gotten some matches on Tinder and I get surprised every time I get one. Hes called Erno, I think so, and he seems like a cute guy even tho I didn't see very good pictures of him. He dresses a lot like me at least when I look at that one picture so that's nice. And one of his hobbies is motocross so hes very boyish and I like that, I bet that its hot to see him on a bike with the proper clothing, if they use those. Why am I making up these scenarios when I don't even know if he'll ever reply me or we ever meet and it will become something, I'm such a love fool that I cant help it.

Sara is going to a laser epilation or what ever it is called in English, it costs 120 euros and I think that she will get pretty a lot hair removed with that money. Maybe I will go to one of those too. I would start from hands because its the most visible part, then legs, torso and finally ass. I guess I wouldn't laserize my cock because I don't wanna laser to there. I can always clean that area with scissors, I also think I will leave armpits. Its maybe need to be done few times tho but maybe I can handle it.

I have to buy manga on Monday with my own money. When did we become so poor? I'm really late with new manga. Also changed the blog's name and layout, not its more hotter that I even cant. Oh my god look how well that picture goes with the layout! <3

#29 I Like 2 Party

Hello.

I did the English test and damn it was easy. I answered every single one of the questions, few times I didn't remember the words so I continued on the next question and when I had done all the tasks I went back to think those words again and they crossed my mind instantly, awesome. I even succeeded in helping Nea out because I spotted a mistake in her test so I wrote in my phone how to fix it and putted on her table, teacher didn't even see anything tho it was close. I also think that I was first one who completed the test first with all answers. Samim gave it to teacher just before me but I don't know if he answered all the questions.

Something really really awesome happened yesterday. I was scrolling my Instagram, I had just uploaded a new picture and I also had commented on this picture uploaded by a cute Asian gay guy which was saying that no one wants him and I commented that I would. He replied by saying "aaaww thats so sweet of you" and my heart got all warmed up. He then also followed me. I got a freaking hyperventilating reaction when I saw that. I had been following him for a while, then he warmed my heart and then he fucking followed me. My worldwide crush followed me. Of course I had to be such an love fool and make up some cute scenarios where he came here and joined my school day and then we came to our house. I'm so weird.

I want my swings back already seriously. Next week we will have Swedish and I cant take that shit without the releasing feeling of swinging.

I started to listen Jay Park's I Like 2 Party. First I didn't quite like it but now I enjoy it really much. Its not new that I start to like song later because it doesn't hit me instantly. There is also a photo that I took when he followed me and I also edited it with the feelings I felt.

#28 I Need A Hero

Hello.

I don't think I have anything special to write. Maybe I just cant remember anything or I simply don't have anything to write about. At least I'm gonna post some nice lyrics, in Finnish tho but no one reads this blog anyway and its meant for me because it goes straight to my heart.

I have had real fun time with Nea these past few days without Julia. We finally had our chemistry and physics tests and they weren't even hard. I'm kinda disappointed in me because I know that it was actually really easy, my ex classmates would so have had K3 from the test. But I have a really bad memory when it comes to school so I did my best, at least I pass the course.

Julia sent messages in WhatsApp from Vaasa. She sent a voice message and apparently Aleksi said something in it, he was trying to annoy Nea (vittuili). I don't know why but I got kinda jealous because of that. He said something straight to her and he doesn't even know my name. Julia also spoke to Aleksi and they even stayed up the whole night, why cant I have that kind of experience? On that night I was so tired and I felt like I don't give a shit about anything and I felt like I could just ask Julia to ask Aleksi does he like boys or girls.

A little thing about Tinder. I was thinking of hearting someone for few minutes and then I decided to give him a heart and we matched - meaning that he hearted me also. But he only got one picture and I wasn't sure did I like his appearance or not. I also hearted another guy called Voitto, in English Victory, it would be hot if someone's name would be Victory. I sent him a message but he hasn't seen it yet, I hope that it wont end like with the first match: sent him message, saw it, didn't reply, fuck u then. I also found someone who I don't know but I have seen him. Jimi's friend came to our class while ago and now I found him on Tinder. I wouldn't have recognized him if there wasn't a note that we shared one friend.

And I don't want  to go to Qruiser or Planet Romeo because it feels such a waste of time and just argh I don't know. I would love to get to know people and even if we wouldn't date we could have some fun once in a while but I'm just too lazy (and insecure?). I'm such hard person. When I come here and think what should I write about and then I just end up saying that I wont write much and then I get this amount of text out. That's how blogging should go, my other is shit compared to this, sometimes I even think why do I even write there. Maybe its because I don't wanna quit again when I told everyone that I wanna write.

Only few days and I have to tolerate eight weeks of Swedish, fuck me...

I need my swings already, I cant manage without them. When I swing I can just sink in a fantasy world and drift away from the reality. 

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Mihin häivyit, könsi-poika?

Minne kulki ties?

Muskeleitten Herkules - tuo aito miesten mies

Valkealla ratsullas tahdon ratsastaa

Keskiyö, kun unta en saa - aina haaveet paljastaa

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin ja tingi mä en

Niin vahva ja voimakas, nopea, uhmakas

Se tekee vaikutuksen

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin - ei harhaa lie

Niin rohkea, tarmokas, taitavakin

Ja hän ratsullaan kauas mut vie, kauas mut vie

Salaisimmat haaveet mua öisin kuljettaa

Sankari tuo toiveiden

Voi aivan melkein saavuttaa

Raju-ilman lailla hän ottaa sydämmein

Ja tumma mies tuo lankeemaan minut saa kai polvillein

Ja missä vuoret taivaaseen kohoaa

Mä tahdo sitä kiistää en

Hyväilee hän muo katsellaan - voin vannoa sen

Jos on myrsky tän taukoavan

Kuka ties - rauhoitun

Mutta mies tuo kuin tuli suonissaan on

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin - ei harhaa lie

Niin rohkea, tarmokas, taitava niin, ja hän ratsullaan kauas mut vie

Niin vahva ja voimakas, nopea, uhmakas

Se tekee vaikutuksen

Mä miehen tahdon

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