Friday, July 11, 2014

#66 Cross out everything you’ve ever done


  • Had a beer
  • Smoked an entire cigarette
  • Done drugs.
  • Written on a bathroom wall.
  • Read a George Orwell book.
  • Used Twitter.
  • Listened to Lady Gaga
  • Been in a car accident. 
  • Gotten suspended. 
  • Gotten expelled.
  • Been allergic to something.
  • Got a computer virus.
  • Touched a real gun.
  • Had a dog.
  • Had a cat
  • Been pregnant.
  • Camped out
  • Swam in the ocean.
  • Wore a bikini 
  • Driven a car
  • Been sent to the principal.
  • Ever liked someone.
  • Failed a class.
  • Failed a test.
  • Went to summer school.
  • Got worse than a D
  • Got A’s and B’s.
  • Read an entire book.
  • Recorded my own music.
  • Had an xbox.
  • Worn heels more than 3 days in a row. 
  • Wore fishnets.
  • Wore skinny jeans.
  • Hated someone.
  • Been cheated on.
  • Cheated on someone.
  • Practiced Christianity.
  • Worn makeup.
  • Lied to my parents about where I was going.
  • Had surgery.
  • Had my license.
  • Worn coloured contacts.
  • Painted my nails black.
  • Broken someone’s heart. 
  • Had my heart broken.
  • Cried for an hour straight 
  • Lost something very valuable.
  • Got separated from one of my parents as a kid.
  • Broken a bone.
  • Gotten stung by a bee.
  • Eaten something bad/expired.
  • Saw someone throw up from being so drunk.
  • Danced with someone of the same sex.
  • Owned an ipod
  • Owned an iphone.
  • Fell for a best friend
  • Stole a friend’s significant other.
  • Went far away from home for more than a week.
  • Moved out.
  • Ran away.
  • Had a job.
  • Been fired.
  • Lied to a friend.
  • Lied to a family member.
  • Had a Facebook.
  • Posted a video on YouTube.
  • Started a rumor about someone.
  • Talked bad about someone.
  • Deliberately failed a test.
  • Been skinny dipping.
  • Counted to a million.
  • Counted to a thousand.
  • Ate rabbit meat.
  • Ate duck meat.
  • Had fast food.
  • Been to church
  • Been to Canada.
  • Been married.
  • Had a divorce.
  • Broke a glass.
  • Hugged someone today.
  • Texted someone today.
  • Received a phone call today.
  • Threw something out of the window.
  • Ignored a text from someone on purpose.
  • Wished you were somebody else.
  • Had my feelings hurt by a friend and never told them.
  • Been to a concert
  • Seen your favourite band live 
  • Met a celebrity 
  • Met your favourite band
  • Own more than 10 CD’s

  • #65 I Want Somebody To Love

    I'm seriously already sick and tired of being single. I want someone who would talk to me every day. Someone who likes my personality and body. Someone who wants to be with me cause I am me. Someone who I can tell everything. Sometimes I'm just sitting somewhere and I imagine someone next to me who holds me. Someone who would love to fuck me like an animal. But I have tried to find him for many years. Either its someone who is fucking old or someone who is ugly or fat. I'm not saying that I'm good looking, I think I'm very ugly but I don't wanna fat guy or too ugly guy. When I finally found someone, he stopped talking to me after few days. I cant find anyone in real life cause I don't know anyone gay or I don't know if anyone is gay. I see it very unlikely to me being in a relationship. I can only imagine those guys and imagine memories with them which will never be true.

    Monday, June 30, 2014

    #64 bold what you prefer.

    coffee or tea
    books or movies
    fruits or vegetables
    headphones or earbuds
    laptops or pc
    facebook or tumblr (you cant compare those)
    netflix or tv
    hardcover or paperback
    tv or movies
    hp or thg
    light or dark
    salt or pepper
    starbucks or dunkin donuts (I haven't been in any of them)
    reading or writing
    writing or drawing
    hot or cold
    talking or listening
    instruments or voice
    cake or cupcakes
    black or white
    sunset or sunrise

    Friday, June 27, 2014

    #63 Sayonara

    Hi.

    Jotenka, eilen tapahtui mahtavia asioita, Jere potkittiin helvettiin ryhmächatistä, JES! Hän oli mennyt vittuilemaan Saralle ja perusteli vittumaistaan käytöstään "I'm just a guy." Like anteeks vaan mulkku mut toi ei oo käypä selitys. Ne oli puhunut Miialla siitä ja Petra oli käyny sitten potkimassa sen pihalle. Aluks olin että what voiks noin tehdä koska mulle ois käynyt samoin jokunen aika sitten, sitten taas toisaalta olin erittäin iloinen että se häädettiin, vieläpä jonkun muun toimesta.

    Kävi sitten lopulta ilmi että kaikilla (paitsi yhellä) oli jotain sitä vastaan. Se ei monesti vastannu viesteihin ja kun se vastas, se oli erittäin ylimielistä, tyyliin "good for you." ja se saatanan piste siellä lopussa, yritäksä olla jotenkin muita parempi? Well jäbä epäonnistui siinä ku lens yli laidan pois meidän joukosta, perheestä. Hän ei sinne koskaan kuulunut ja mulla oli erittäin pitkään halu saada hänet pois sieltä, koska hän oli vain lisäys, ei osana perhettä, vain lisäys. Petralla on vahva mielipide siitä että sitä ei päästetä takasin ja olen samaa mieltä.

    ♫ ~ Hän huutakoon vain muttei anteeksi saa ~ 

    Tuesday, June 17, 2014

    #62 Sitruunapillu

    Hello.

    I decided to write this one in Finnish cause I want it to be quick and I didn't want to think how to translate this and that, sorry.

    LEDApple on tulossa Suomeen keikalle ja niin oli kai tarkoitus tulla A-Princenkin mutta se on näköjään peruttu. Ilmaisin vitsillä että miksi kaikki nevahöödit on tulossa Suomeen, tarkoitin sillä että ei niin tunnetut, en myöskään heitä ollenkaan kuuntele. Miia, joka ragee nyt mistä vaan päätti tietenkin sanoa vastaan ja tässä on pieni copy+paste kirjoitus siitä, minä olen tummennettu osio.

    Miks kaikki nevahöödit vaa tulee yh xD

    Mitkä nevahöödit? Lool
    Kuka o nevahööd?

    Monday, June 16, 2014

    #61 Fxxk You Brother

    Hello.

    I haven't wrote in a week but thats because I didn't have anything to write about but now I could.

    So I heard that Coco and Bob are coming here so I can babysit them since big brother is going abroad. It happens to be on same time when I was supposed to go Tampere to Miia but apparently I have to cancel that. Miia raged something about how this was planned a long time ago and that its not nice to that one week before the trip. Cant you understand that things like this can happen, and we already met not a long time ago. And how much time do you need to "prepare" that one guy isn't coming? Did you buy us food exactly for 4 persons or what, like you have a fucking week, that more than enough. :'D

    I would really like to go there but also this may be the last chance to see Coco and Bob since they are planning on moving abroad in which case I wont see them again, probably never. Unless if we take a trip there but that is really unlike option. I don't even know could I get money for the trip to Tampere.

    Monday, June 9, 2014

    #60 When Will I Learn + Mikko Leppilampi

    Hello.

    On Saturday I went to Helsinki to watch Kpop World Festival. I had really fun time with Binga, she is nowadays my hang out friend cause either there is no one else and Miia hangs out with her friends. The show started out awesome with two 2NE1 songs and there performed many good songs.  

    Today Julia told in WhatsApp about her problems cause that's only what she has and I tried to cheer her up as usually. Nea then said that Julia should get some help and raged something to her. Julia has apparently told something about Nea to Atte so they had a little fight between them, I enjoyed it. Then Julia came to private chat and asked "can I even talk to you" and I told her that I don't tell about her shit to anyone and I got her back. Then I said in the group chat that Nea shouldn't believe everything Atte says cause he has lied before. Nea answered to that by saying "don't come here and apply when you don't know (him)" and "or don't know anything about anything".

    Well you have also talked shit about him and I know that he cant be totally trusted and that hes an stupid person often. Of course I don't know because you whores wont never tell me anything, you always wipe me off when you want but any other time I'm ofc needed. Fine then stupid whores, I wont say a word this summer, I'M NOT GOING TO LISTEN YOUR FUCKED UP DRAMA AND I WONT HELP YOU, you can fuck off. And that's not all, Julia replied to that "OUUUU XD" like WHAT THE FUCK BITCH?!?! Thank you for showing your support once again, I tried to help you but you only pissed in my cereals, bitch. Die in your drama.

    Few pictures of my favourite scene from a movie I saw in primary school and now again in TV, hot actor Mikko Leppilampi.


    Friday, June 6, 2014

    #59 Classy In Calvin Klein

    Hello.

    I have this bad habit that I sometimes do. Its cumming in the middle of the day. I wanted to scroll my Twitter and ofc it made me horny and I was laying in bed so I couldn't resist the good feeling that cumming gives you. But the bad side is that I cum in my boxers so it will stink and feel annoying. I gotta get rid of that. I also discovered some kind of lump on my penis and it hurt, I couldn't cum because of it and touching wasn't easy. Its now gone better tho and that made me cum in the day which is bad. I had to wash the cum area and change my boxers into my white Calvin Klein boxers, I cant remember when was the last time I used them.

    I asked money from my mom to get to capital and she said that I have to use my own money cause that why I have it. Well I don't fucking have it, I used all of it to my new phone and the rest are given as a loan to people. Then she said that I have to come home for night or my trips will end here. For fucks sakes I'm going to Helsinki, been there million times, lived there 13 years. I could easily sleep at granma's but no.

    Then there is this guy Anton,so we are done. He hasn't replied to my messages so fuck that asshole, I just would like to know why, why he was a pussy.

    Tuesday, June 3, 2014

    #58 Telephone

    Hello.

    I went to the store to ask how much it would cost to repair my screen and they said that it would cost over 100 euros and I was like fuck yeah. So I decided to take a look of what they had in their store at the moment, good thing I took all my money with me. I looked at all the phones but everything cost over 100 euros and I was getting desperate, until I sad it. Samsung Galaxy Trend Plus was just 100 euros, so I decided to take it. I also bought new cover case for it since my old was breaking apart and ugly.

    It has new operating system which I really don't like, I liked the older one a lot more but at least its a lot faster now, I guess. Also the new blue cover looks amazing and cool, makes me feel so swag in a way, I don't know how to describe it. I had to download all the apps back and over 100 songs but its okey. I posted about my phone on Instagram when I got it to work and Julia came and laughed at that picture and asked me on whatsapp am I pissed off. I wasn't really but her bitchy attitude was really childish, I removed the comment and didn't answer her.

    Most embarrassing thing happened on a way home that day. I was just walking and listening to music when these two boys came across and yelled "retarded" at me and then to car driver. I looked at them like what the fuck little hoes. Who's the retarded here? I'm not the one yelling at people with retarded tone voice, fucking little piece of shits. If they tried to make feel bad then nope, only a huge amount of shame on them.

    One last thing, I was taking a morning shower and at the end of that as always I filled my ass up with water. I thought that it all just came out and that's it, tho I felt little pressure that I had to take two immediately. I first dried myself up and put on boxers and then went to the toilet, when I took them off, almost before I even sat on the toilet, everything came out. Like gurl, there was water coming out with shit. I didn't even notice that there was water inside, pretty a lot, maybe my ass was keeping it in so well. Well at least it cleaned up totally, I have never experienced something like that but now I should experience it every time to make sure that everything comes out.

    Sunday, June 1, 2014

    #57 Baby I Miss You



    Hello.

    So this day was all ok, if we don't count my brother being an asshole again, until I decided to go out to swing. Since I had downloaded many new songs to my phone I wanted to go and listen to them. I only listened to few of them when my phone fell down on the ground, on sand and the screen broke down. It has crushed on much harder surfaces and nothing happened, but on sand? Ofc it had to brake down.

    First it was pretty ok but when I closed it and opened it again I couldn't even open it and it just went wild. I still listened to all of the songs and then I went home. I told mom that we have to take it to get fixed and she was like "take it, you have money". Like for gods sakes, do you know how much its going to cost? I'm gonna lose all my money. I'm gonna ask in the store how much its going to cost, if its too much I will buy new one. I still will lose every single penny, thanks mom... Well she will then pay my trip to Helsinki.

    Luckily its summer because I would have gone mad in school. Still if it takes time, I'm going to have tons of pictures in Twitter and I will totally neglect my brand new Instagram account. Fucking "modern" technology. Gotta get through this with Jamie Lynn Spears' all new and good music and Taeyang's soon to be released new album.


    Saturday, May 31, 2014

    #56 Hail To Summer


    Hello.

    So the summer has officially started since all the 9 graders have gotten their numbers and so on. My first year at business college has also ended. There is a lot of good memories but there's always bad with the good. I cant understand how one year went so fast, I remember going to school one hour early and shaking like hell. How I've grown into my new classmate friends, and also a little bit of hate.

    I went to school on Friday for one more day, to get my 1st year graduation paper and to eat a donut and a cookie. Then I went home and met my brother near to our secondary school, he bought this just released game Watch Dogs. So we walked home together and talked some shiet and stuff. We played it for few hours, then our grams arrived so we stopped playing and went so hi. After that I was feeling very sleepy so I decided to rest my eyes. I went to "rest" about 6 pm and woke up at 10 pm, so I decided to really go to sleep. I even saw many dreams, which is unusual for me.

    So today I woke up 8 am but I rose out of bed about 10 am. When I was on computer doing my things, my brother came into my room and told me to come help with something. He didn't tell with what so I didn't hurry at all and because of he decided to piss me off really badly. By hitting and touching me, pushing my computer and taking off my headphones of the computer, and my speaker is broken so it crackles. How stupid can you be to not to know that it definitely wont make me move. When I tell him to stop, no, ofc he wont. He will just keep on pissing me off cause he always, cause he is fucking dum that way. Asshole.

    I also made an new Instagram account. This time I will try to not to get banned by posting non penis photos. I posted my first picture three days ago and I already have almost 100 pictures and 153 followers.
    Our photoshoot pictures came too and I look horrible, my hair was just fucked up from the front, back and on top. Good thing to first to make do once I wake up is to get me ready for the photoshoot, ofc I would look like shit.

     About that guy I told about who I met in Qruiser, hes name is Anton. Apparently his phone didn't inform him about new messages in Kik so that's why he didn't reply to me. He seems such a nice guy and even to like me with my body hair. But he doesn't reply anymore, he hasn't even read the messages. He told me that he would check once in a while but no no no ofc he wont, idiot. I don't know if I should message him on Qruiser cause I already did once and I don't want to seem clingy. But I sent him the last message on Thursday so maybe its a good time gap.

    One last thing, I'm really starting to hate Jere. Because he reads the messages but wont reply. Like Henna is having hard time, he reads it but wont reply like aren't you a magnificent guy, I see you care a lot. When he puts some messages, they are often very bitchy or immature. He doesn't even belong there as I said last time. Another thing that I noticed is that he, Vili, Miia or Petra haven't liked my new profile picture on Facebook. I understand Petra since were kinda like enemies but Miia and Vili. You should like your friends stuff on Facebook, especially these big ones to show that you like them and are interested in them. Vili liked Riko's picture tho and she posted it later than me so thanks for being a "bestfriend" tho I haven't kept him as an bestfriend for a long time but I cant say it cause I don't wanna hurt his feelings or start and question wave and shit.


    Thursday, May 29, 2014

    #55 Benjamin Peltonen

    Hello.

    My brother got his grades today and he got a stipend witch included 40 euros about the best basic subjects of his school. He then came to my room and bragged that he is better in school than me. Well first of all, we go to different schools and different examinations so you cant compare those two and I was always the better one in school. So don't think that you are better than me in your examination.

    I was getting ready for going outside when my brother came in to my room and I was in the middle of scrolling through porn pics on Twitter. He sat next to and was being annoying and shit so he made me really mad. Then when I was going outside, my mom started asking questions, then I went to see how much was it raining, well too much so I couldn't go outside. Then mom started to yell at me that don't go and why are you on your socks walking outside and ugh, made me even more mad. So I went to computer to live my porn life and to be pissed off. Luckily I got to go outside for about two hours later on.

    Then for the final thing. I read yesterday that Benjamin Peltonen will be recording an album and I was like what and decided to look up some singing videos, well I didn't find any but I went to his Instagram account and fell in love with him. Hes such a perfect looking guy, I have to start stalking him from now on.




    Tuesday, May 27, 2014

    #54 All These People

    Hello.

    I haven't been writing in a week anything except that question thing. I could have wrote something but yeah, I didn't and I didn't. School has been really fun with these last days. We took nice pictures, sat outside and played at the playground which was very funny. I have passed all the courses and tests. Today was the last day with 2 hours being in school. I was really afraid of the presentation we had to perform today because he was supposed to ask questions about the presentation but he didn't, luckily. Next time I have to go to school is Friday to get my certificate of my courses.

    I was also thinking when I was coming back home about the thing that I only attract sad people to my life. Am I like a karma's gift to these sad people that I'm supposed to bring happiness to their life? Well sorry but I wont take that anymore cause I'm tired of that everyone are just sad. Everyone are sad in a way or another, especially in the group chat, and my school friends too like wtf people stop being so WEAK.

    Also another thing that is annoying me is how people check what someone writes in the group chat but wont say anything, then their stupid name is just written in end. Especially Petra's and Jere's names are particularly annoying because they do it most. The chat isn't the way it was, everyone are just bitches and everyone, except me, have left the chat and then came back, some of them more than once. And with Jere being there, its not family chat anymore. Hes such a random person and there's no family-like feeling towards that person, hes just a stranger. I only accepted him there because I hated how they only put messages into that chat where Jere were and they were totally ingnoring everyone who weren't in that chat, even if Jere wasn't even there to read those messages. I think that tells something about our non-existing group spirit.

    I also finally found a cute normal guy from Qruiser, like I have been waiting for him since forever. Finally someone nice looking of my own age shows interest towards me. But he is apparently only looking for gay experiences so I'm not sure if I can get a boyfriend of him. He is apparently bi, also, so that's a negative side since I can lose him to any girl if he doesn't like my outer appearance. But even bigger problem is that he doesn't even message me. I messaged him in the morning and he replies when I go to sleep, like wtf man? Don't you use your phone all the time? How am I supposed to build a relationship with him when he doesn't even talk? Sometimes I even think what am I doing when no one in the internet doesn't seem like a good boyfriend or I'm not enthusiastic to keep in touch with them, if I even get a message. I would want to find a guy in real life but its a fucking impossible thing to a gay guy = =

    Sunday, May 25, 2014

    #53 Questions Not Usually Asked

    1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
    Always closed!

    2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
    I haven't really been in that kind of hotels but I guess I would.

    3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
    Out..?

    4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
    No.

    5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
    Sure!

    6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
    Maybe sometimes.

    7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
    Bees.

    8:Do you have freckles?
    No.

    9:Do you always smile for pictures?
    No..

    10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
    I really don't have answer to this one since I don't completely understand the question.

    11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
    No.

    14:Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
    Yes.

    15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
    No.

    16:How many people have you slept with this week?
    Zero.

    17:What size is your bed?
    Normal small with one person.

    18:What is your Song of the week?
    Maybe Good-night Kiss by Junhyoseong.

    19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
    Hell yes ;)

    20:Do you still watch cartoons?
    Of course!

    21:Whats your least favorite movie?
    Maybe that one that was called something like two guns and a smoking barrel or something like that.

    22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
    On my backyard.

    23:What do you drink with dinner?
    Tea but in school juice.

    24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
    Nothing.

    25:What is your favorite food?
    Bacon pasta.

    26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
    Eight Below, Mulan etc.

    28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
    Nope.

    29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
    Sure.

    30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
    Reaally long time ago.

    31:Can you change the oil on a car?
    Nope.

    32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
    I don't even have a license so..

    33:Ever ran out of gas?
    I guess so (well my dad).

    34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
    xx

    35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
    Something light.

    36:What is your usual bedtime?
    Before midnight.

    37:Are you lazy?
    Depends on what I have to do but sometimes I am.

    38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
    I never did.

    39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
    Apparently its Ox.

    40:How many languages can you speak?
    Two: Finnish and English.

    41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
    Noo.

    42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
    Legos D44.

    43:Are you stubborn?
    Not much I guess.

    44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
    Who?

    45:Ever watch soap operas?
    Ofc!

    46:Are you afraid of heights?
    No.

    47:Do you sing in the car?
    No.

    48:Do you sing in the shower?
    Yes.

    49:Do you dance in the car?
    Yeah.

    50:Ever used a gun?
    No.

    51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
    Yesterday.

    52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
    No.

    53:Is Christmas stressful?
    No.

    54:Ever eat a pierogi?
    If I have, I don't remember.

    55:Favorite type of fruit pie?
    Maybe blueberry.

    56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
    I don't remember any.

    57:Do you believe in ghosts?
    I'm not really sure..

    58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
    D44.

    59:Take a vitamin daily?
    Nope.

    60:Wear slippers?
    Sure.

    61:Wear a bath robe?
    Not usually.

    62:What do you wear to bed?
    T-shirt and boxers.

    63:First concert?
    Never been in one.

    64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
    We don't have those in Finland.

    65:Nike or Adidas?
    Adidas.

    66:Cheetos Or Fritos?
    xx

    67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
    Peanuts.

    68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
    Maybe..

    69:Ever take dance lessons?
    No unless you count the school dances.

    70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
    Noo.

    71:Can you curl your tongue?
    Yes.

    72:Ever won a spelling bee?
    I have never participated.

    73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
    Yes.

    74:Own any record albums?
    Two, 2NE1 First and Second mini album.

    75:Own a record player?
    Yes.

    76:Regularly burn incense?
    Never.

    77:Ever been in love?
    Well yeah maybe.

    78:Who would you like to see in concert?
    2NE1.

    79:What was the last concert you saw?
    xx

    80:Hot tea or cold tea?
    Cold!

    81:Tea or coffee?
    Tea!

    82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
    Sugar..?

    83:Can you swim well?
    Enough.

    84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
    Yes.

    85:Are you patient?
    Yes.

    86:DJ or band, at a wedding?
    I don't want to get married but maybe a band.

    87:Ever won a contest?
    Yes.

    88:Ever have plastic surgery?
    No.

    89:Which are better black or green olives?
    Non of them.

    90:Can you knit or crochet?
    No.

    91:Best room for a fireplace?
    Living room.

    92:Do you want to get married?
    No.

    93:If married, how long have you been married?
    xx

    95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
    No.

    96:Do you have kids?
    No.

    97:Do you want kids?
    NO.

    98:Whats your favorite color?
    Red and turquoise.

    99:Do you miss anyone right now?
    No.