#54 All These People

Hello.

I haven't been writing in a week anything except that question thing. I could have wrote something but yeah, I didn't and I didn't. School has been really fun with these last days. We took nice pictures, sat outside and played at the playground which was very funny. I have passed all the courses and tests. Today was the last day with 2 hours being in school. I was really afraid of the presentation we had to perform today because he was supposed to ask questions about the presentation but he didn't, luckily. Next time I have to go to school is Friday to get my certificate of my courses.

I was also thinking when I was coming back home about the thing that I only attract sad people to my life. Am I like a karma's gift to these sad people that I'm supposed to bring happiness to their life? Well sorry but I wont take that anymore cause I'm tired of that everyone are just sad. Everyone are sad in a way or another, especially in the group chat, and my school friends too like wtf people stop being so WEAK.

Also another thing that is annoying me is how people check what someone writes in the group chat but wont say anything, then their stupid name is just written in end. Especially Petra's and Jere's names are particularly annoying because they do it most. The chat isn't the way it was, everyone are just bitches and everyone, except me, have left the chat and then came back, some of them more than once. And with Jere being there, its not family chat anymore. Hes such a random person and there's no family-like feeling towards that person, hes just a stranger. I only accepted him there because I hated how they only put messages into that chat where Jere were and they were totally ingnoring everyone who weren't in that chat, even if Jere wasn't even there to read those messages. I think that tells something about our non-existing group spirit.

I also finally found a cute normal guy from Qruiser, like I have been waiting for him since forever. Finally someone nice looking of my own age shows interest towards me. But he is apparently only looking for gay experiences so I'm not sure if I can get a boyfriend of him. He is apparently bi, also, so that's a negative side since I can lose him to any girl if he doesn't like my outer appearance. But even bigger problem is that he doesn't even message me. I messaged him in the morning and he replies when I go to sleep, like wtf man? Don't you use your phone all the time? How am I supposed to build a relationship with him when he doesn't even talk? Sometimes I even think what am I doing when no one in the internet doesn't seem like a good boyfriend or I'm not enthusiastic to keep in touch with them, if I even get a message. I would want to find a guy in real life but its a fucking impossible thing to a gay guy = =