#50 Changes

Hello.

Yesterday I overslept and I looked at the clock, it was about 9:18 am so I decided to take the two and thought that I have lots of time in my hands before the next possible train. I was eating and then I realized that clock is almost 10:20 and I was like oh shit, how did I not notice the clock. So I had to stop eating and hurry to the train station (my train would leave 10:39), I couldn't even brush my teeth, straightened my hair or put on deodorant nor perfume.

We had our word test in Wednesday and the teacher left us alone in the class room to do that test and I had my answer sheet with me so me and Julia could easily just look some answers up. Nea decided to stay with Tommi so she couldn't enjoy this fortunes gift. They decided to get back together but they broke up for good in two days. Nea said to Konsta that she has someone else and destroyed Konsta's hopes totally but when she asked can she come for a sleep over, he said yes. Like aren't you offended that she wants you only when she cant handle her first choice? I hoped that it wouldn't be so easy for her, I'm such bad person haha. I guess they would have even had sex but Nea has that time of the month so they probably wont. Everyone else are fucking except me! TT

Back to Thursday. When I got back from school, no one was home. I wondered around and I spotted an lubricant so I decided to try it. I went to the bathroom and took some of it in my hand. It made the hand slide really nicely but it was kinda like silicon or something, it was still okey tho. I even put some on my ass and on a toothbrush to try how it would work as an dildo. It was the same as shampoo, no difference. But with this experiment I finally see that I don't like jerking off by hand at all. Its so slow and it gives a weird feeling, almost like it hurts (this could be because of smegma) or this annoying feeling like can I already cum etc. I prefer pushing my cock against an mattress and cum that way.

Little book keeping of toning progress:

Abs: 30

Pull-ups: 7