Hello.
Or maybe I should start starting these posts with dear diary since I'm not writing to anyone and this is mainly for me to open up my thoughts and share my opinions publicly. I also changed my layout for a better one. i love the banner, Jay looks so cool and I added that "Sorry I'm a bad boy" text there to make it more personal.
This one is gonna be short. Vili said that he is going to offer Petra a place to stay for Tracon. She was acting a bitch for me while ago so I don't really like her much. I guess we will be fine but still, at least there is no five persons in the same small apartment at the same time, only three.
Julia and Nea were talking in WhatsApp about something and then Julia said that I don't know something. Like why can't you tell me the same stuff you tell to Julia? I see how you appreciate me, that's why I didn't say anything, just ignored their talk. Don't wanna talk to me, then I wont talk to you. Julia left today to Vaasa and now its just me and Nea and I hope that we will get more close. At least Julia gave me a hug before she left, didn't expect that to happen any time soon but it was really nice. :)
Can I ask why young people don't internet date? I'm in two different places plus in Tinder and I cant find anyone. Only too old men, who are really sweet and they put effort in their relationships, why cant boys be like that too? Or they are ugly or they are assholes using those stupid smileys or not using at all and they seem really lame people. And no one hearts me on Tinder, I think that one guy saw that message I gave him but he didn't reply. Seriously, this is not angsting, no one loves me (not the way that friends and family do) and no one wants to love me cause I'm ugly. Still I have expectations to find someone hot and all these sex fantasies even if I'm insecure about even revealing my body to anyone. What if when they see my body hair they find me disgusting? That's like the worst thing that could happen. I even don't know anyone who's gay in real life, I know one but hes not my type at all and Vili is bi but he always gets crush on girls so I don't think that he will have a boyfriend ever.
For the end, I love Marina & The Diamonds' How To Be A Heartbreaker. When I first saw the music video: turn on.
Love him with tattoos. I hope my boyfriend will have tattoos also.
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