#23 The Second One

Hello.

Tuesday morning started with really sleepy feelings. I woke up in the middle of the night after midnight and I don't even know why. Did I saw a dream or something, did I feel unpleasant because the bed cover was in weird position? Luckily I still had about 6 hours till I had to wake up.

English class was really nice cause I got to listen to music from computer and I didn't have to anything special. But I got totally faded by Nea and Julia, I don't what they were talking about but I guess it was about Nea's friend with who she had something going on. Like you can't talk about that with me? Its not a freaking girl talk subject, I see how much you appreciate me. Well I decided not to give a fuck and started to listen music and completely ignore them. We'll see how me being second choice affect later.

The second English lesson was pretty useless. I answered in this one task for all the questions my teacher asked and I certainly hope that it will be seen in my final grade.

I have to wonder one thing: one of my class mates was raging to this other dude because he didn't give him a pencil. Why you don't have your own? They cost like 20 cents. And they are always "broken" meaning they are tired of school or something. They say that every five minutes and all these other things that they have used way too much that its starting to be really really annoying. And why in the fucking hell are you in this school if you only play computer games and don't pay attention to teaching? Teens these days are such assholes that I even cant. I'm sure someone else would love to take your place. Well I only get two of those annoying idiots to my new class, I hope that those who will be in my class aren't as retarded as my current class.

I wonder why I didn't find Aleksi's name from the list where were written in which class will you be in. I hope that he will come to same class as me so that we would have a bigger chance to get to know each other and I could see him more and hear him talk and stuff like that.

And for the last thing. I am really worried about my chest because my left side feels really weird, like it almost hurts and I guess that it feels harder than the right one. It made me feel really anxious in the train and all I wanted was to gtfo from that train so that I could finally walk. I hope that this weird feeling will pass with time.

Ps. I want my swings back already.