#34 Losers

Hello.

So this is just a random text of random shit. First of all, my dad was talking some shit about something that I don't even remember what was it about and I didn't even listen cause I have already gotten enough of his nonsense that I just don't care. He was talking about something our Internets (computer and phone) and he asked why we need internet in our phones and if we have internet in our phones then we don't need computers... First of all: MY PHONE CONNECTION COSTS WITH INTERNET AS MUCH AS IT DID WITH MY LAST PHONE WITHOUT INTERNET. And its not the fucking same thing, my everything is in my computer just OH MY GOD I CANT EVEN SPEAK PROPERLY WHEN I THINK ABOUT THIS. NEVER EVER SAY THAT TO ME AGAIN OR HEADS WILL BE FLYIN. Then he even said that maybe we would have hobbies if we wouldn't have computers. I DO HAVE HOBBIES. One of them is writing this diary blog, photographing and dancing. So I need computer for all of those, writing this, a place where I can put my photos and share them with the world and I learn dances from YouTube so fuck you, don't fuck with homeboy especially when I'm a Virgo. He even said that we should even go for a walk, like don't you know me? I go very often outside for many hours to swing so I'm breathing fresh air what the fuck dude. For the end he said that when we get a job we have to pay for our internet, like fuck I'm gonna stay here then no way. I'm not gonna stay here with a shitty connection where I cant have my own privacy sorry. For the end of this rage: he paid his loan from me and now I can finally buy manga. But he said that we need new shoes for summer... I HAVE SHOES LIKE WHAT THE FUCK AGAIN. They always make us buy clothes that we DON'T NEED and then they are amazed when they have no money and they are saying that we will have hard time when they can't even take care of their money Jesus Christ. I guess that it wasn't the end of rage huh... 

A hot man between here hehe. Look how hot he is! I need to know which movie this is from! x_x

Then some random shit. I took some comics and a movie from our school take away shelf. Two manga's: Tokyo Mew Mew part six I guess and Doors of Chaos part 1 - I haven't heard about it earlier. The movie was Aquamarine, I have seen it once or twice and I liked it so I decided to take it with me to a better home, also two Donald Duck comics for my brother.

I also got an answer in Tinder for the first time, I don't know why he answered by saying "hello ;))" like are you looking for sex or what but I'm kinda disappointed that it was someone who isn't that good looking and I don't even know if I have an interest to keep up with him. Also that one guy called Erno (if I remember right) hes apparently looking for chicks so why did he come up at my Tinder? Maybe because his settings were shitty, frustrations after frustrations.

Then some shit talk about Swedish. We had our second lesson of Swedish on Friday and oh my god what kind of shit is that. Our teacher is such a bitch that it doesn't even make sense. She annoys everyone like I cant even explain it, she is just a simple bitch, talks like a bitch and she radiates bitchnes. I try to be as hidden and silent in the class as much as possible, I don't wanna say a word in that hell hole. Only seven weeks more, I hope I can manage that without getting a mental breakdown. Maybe just six because I guess I will skip those lessons and as many lessons as possible, fucking cunt.

And when I told my opinion in Instagram about Swedish in Finland I lost four followers, were they Swedes who took it personally and so they were a little cry babies and unfollowed me. I wrote there that I cant stand learning Swedish because I will never use it and if you are Swede who lives in Finland you fucking should learn Finnish. It wont be my problem if I cant help you in my future job. We'll see, we'll see...

I forgot to link this sugaring page here last time so that I will remember it, so don't mind it. I had to post those gifs cause hes so cute and hot at the same time + no one even reads this so its for my entertainment.

http://www.sunsugaring.com/

#33 Hottest The Vampire Diaries Boys

Hello.

Since The Vampire Diaries is one of my favorite TV-shows I decided to make a list of the hottest actors from it in my opinion. I mainly decided by how they look but in some cases I had to also think about their character and what kind of relationship I have with them. Please leave a comment of your favorites! 

10. Alaric Saltzman // Matthew Davis

9. Mason Lockwood // Taylor Kinney

8. Elijah Mikaelson // Daniel Gillies

     

7. Kol Mikaelson // Nathaniel Buzolic

6. Matt Donovan // Zach Roerig

5. Damon Salvatore // Ian Somerhalder

4. Stefan Salvatore // Paul Wesley

3. Klaus Mikaelson // Joseph Morgan

2. Jeremy Gilbert // Steven R. McQueen

1. Tyler Lockwood // Michael Trevino

#32 Swing

Hello.

I remembered that I go to school by ten just when I decided to go to sleep, and I still think that I didn't get enough sleep. Well I had to be all by myself there because Julia decided to have a migraine and the first lesson was Swedish... Did I already mention how much I hate it? Luckily we had a visitor and she was telling us about differences between Swedish and Finnish schools, tho she told it in Swedish so I didn't understand almost nothing. She told us that she can speak six different languages and one of them was Japanese. I wanted to ask if she liked manga and anime but I couldn't remember how to ask that in Swedish so i decided to keep my mouth shut. I was quiet as much as I could, only spoke when I had to.

Then we had a nice meal and I got to spend time with Niko without the girls, it was really nice. I didn't really find him attractive earlier but now I think that he is pretty cute. I thinks its because we didn't know each other so well and now we do know each other better that the looks barrier has gone down, I even fantasized having sex with him, riding him like a stallion. And I don't get why Julia is saying that Jimi is ugly and bad stuff about him. I think he looks cute and if he wanted to fuck with you so much, then isn't that just a good thing that he wants you? I know I would feel flattered. 

We then had our first salesmanship theory lesson. I have buy something paper thing again like I have money for that and also another book for another class. It was okey and stuff, we have eight works to do on the lessons since we have that class once a week and we only have eight weeks left for school. I hope that Julia wont screw everything up because we have to do those tasks in pairs and if she replaces me with Nea I'm gonna shoot her. I certainly wont give those tasks to her, tho I think that she will get them still somehow. I also got to leave earlier so I didn't have to wait an hour for next shitty train.

When I got home I went to the swings to check if they were back or not. I saw something there but I wasn't sure, when I walked closer and closer I started to see it and run the rest of the trip and there they were, they came back to me. I was so happy. Then I went back home and saw kebab and Fanta on kitchen table - good food made me even happier. I watched Black Widows and Nymphs on internet so I was even more happy. Then my dad made a fruit salad so I was even more happier, this whole day was just bunch of happiness. Maybe it was reward of the Swedish class and the whole school day?

 But when I went for swings at nine pm, I didn't enjoy it much - I don't know why and now my hands hurt. And I don't know what to with manga, I have to buy Weed but just for fucks sakes parents... I guess I will just buy those mangas.

#31 Timberlake

Hello.

I watched the movie called Friends With Benefits and Justin Timberlake was the second main actor in it. I didn't really like Justin or found him attractive earlier but this movie changed it all. You could see like everything of him except his cock and some hot sex scenes, like damn I think I fell in love with those abs. He also was so god damn cute and adorable that I even cant.

I couldn't wait to get to shower last weekend, my hair is freaking itchy, it started when I used my moms hair spray and just for fucks sakes. I think it even bleed. I also noticed that I'm having cheek hairs... Like I don't have enough hair already? Well after I got myself into better condition I got to wash my ass without feeling any pain. I also sprayed the shower water against my balls again. Oh my god it feels so good, makes full erection and looks so erotic when water is dripping on my torso. By the way Julia gave me her old straightener and I straightened my front hair a bit. Gotta try it again when I have more hair.

I looked up some info how to get rid off body hair. Laser was so fucking expensive that I wont even consider that anymore. All tho I found out another way: sugaring. You can buy the stuff you need for it for really cheap and do it at home with privacy. I will buy that as soon as I get the chance.

Today we met our new classmates, I don't like them. They are way too quiet and boring and just ugh, I could take my old class back if you don't mind, please. Also we saw "our stalker" again today. We figured out his name a long time ago, his name is Konsta. He looked so so so damn cute today, now that I have gotten over Aleksi I can start drooling him. He even lives at the same town as I.

I saw that Julia is using Tinder even tho she has a boyfriend. Like oh my god she had so many guy matches in her message place, like its unfair she doesn't even need them. And I cant even get a single answer from someone... and when she was going through the new guys she skipped so many cute looking guys and she didn't even look at their profiles...

Then for the end. People were like turn on the channel 4, 2NE1 will be on Top Model. Like fucking idiots get your facts straight. They're showing the 19th season right now and 2NE1 will appear on season 21 + I don't think that they will appear on first episode. Such facepalm.

#30 Bad Boys

Hello.

So apparently Aleksi has a girlfriend, Julia told me this. Finally I got to know which way he was swinging. Now I don't have to waste my time on drooling all over him and I can seek another man without feeling bad, not that I would feel bad if I'm looking up other options hah.

I decided to go to Qruiser and Planet Romeo again. I didn't want to go there because there really was no one I wanted to speak with so I was feeling anxious even thinking about those places. Someone in my age finally contacted me but he doesn't have any pictures of him and if I have to get disappointed again then for fucks sake's I'm gonna shoot somebody. 

I have also gotten some matches on Tinder and I get surprised every time I get one. Hes called Erno, I think so, and he seems like a cute guy even tho I didn't see very good pictures of him. He dresses a lot like me at least when I look at that one picture so that's nice. And one of his hobbies is motocross so hes very boyish and I like that, I bet that its hot to see him on a bike with the proper clothing, if they use those. Why am I making up these scenarios when I don't even know if he'll ever reply me or we ever meet and it will become something, I'm such a love fool that I cant help it.

Sara is going to a laser epilation or what ever it is called in English, it costs 120 euros and I think that she will get pretty a lot hair removed with that money. Maybe I will go to one of those too. I would start from hands because its the most visible part, then legs, torso and finally ass. I guess I wouldn't laserize my cock because I don't wanna laser to there. I can always clean that area with scissors, I also think I will leave armpits. Its maybe need to be done few times tho but maybe I can handle it.

I have to buy manga on Monday with my own money. When did we become so poor? I'm really late with new manga. Also changed the blog's name and layout, not its more hotter that I even cant. Oh my god look how well that picture goes with the layout! <3

#29 I Like 2 Party

Hello.

I did the English test and damn it was easy. I answered every single one of the questions, few times I didn't remember the words so I continued on the next question and when I had done all the tasks I went back to think those words again and they crossed my mind instantly, awesome. I even succeeded in helping Nea out because I spotted a mistake in her test so I wrote in my phone how to fix it and putted on her table, teacher didn't even see anything tho it was close. I also think that I was first one who completed the test first with all answers. Samim gave it to teacher just before me but I don't know if he answered all the questions.

Something really really awesome happened yesterday. I was scrolling my Instagram, I had just uploaded a new picture and I also had commented on this picture uploaded by a cute Asian gay guy which was saying that no one wants him and I commented that I would. He replied by saying "aaaww thats so sweet of you" and my heart got all warmed up. He then also followed me. I got a freaking hyperventilating reaction when I saw that. I had been following him for a while, then he warmed my heart and then he fucking followed me. My worldwide crush followed me. Of course I had to be such an love fool and make up some cute scenarios where he came here and joined my school day and then we came to our house. I'm so weird.

I want my swings back already seriously. Next week we will have Swedish and I cant take that shit without the releasing feeling of swinging.

I started to listen Jay Park's I Like 2 Party. First I didn't quite like it but now I enjoy it really much. Its not new that I start to like song later because it doesn't hit me instantly. There is also a photo that I took when he followed me and I also edited it with the feelings I felt.

#28 I Need A Hero

Hello.

I don't think I have anything special to write. Maybe I just cant remember anything or I simply don't have anything to write about. At least I'm gonna post some nice lyrics, in Finnish tho but no one reads this blog anyway and its meant for me because it goes straight to my heart.

I have had real fun time with Nea these past few days without Julia. We finally had our chemistry and physics tests and they weren't even hard. I'm kinda disappointed in me because I know that it was actually really easy, my ex classmates would so have had K3 from the test. But I have a really bad memory when it comes to school so I did my best, at least I pass the course.

Julia sent messages in WhatsApp from Vaasa. She sent a voice message and apparently Aleksi said something in it, he was trying to annoy Nea (vittuili). I don't know why but I got kinda jealous because of that. He said something straight to her and he doesn't even know my name. Julia also spoke to Aleksi and they even stayed up the whole night, why cant I have that kind of experience? On that night I was so tired and I felt like I don't give a shit about anything and I felt like I could just ask Julia to ask Aleksi does he like boys or girls.

A little thing about Tinder. I was thinking of hearting someone for few minutes and then I decided to give him a heart and we matched - meaning that he hearted me also. But he only got one picture and I wasn't sure did I like his appearance or not. I also hearted another guy called Voitto, in English Victory, it would be hot if someone's name would be Victory. I sent him a message but he hasn't seen it yet, I hope that it wont end like with the first match: sent him message, saw it, didn't reply, fuck u then. I also found someone who I don't know but I have seen him. Jimi's friend came to our class while ago and now I found him on Tinder. I wouldn't have recognized him if there wasn't a note that we shared one friend.

And I don't want  to go to Qruiser or Planet Romeo because it feels such a waste of time and just argh I don't know. I would love to get to know people and even if we wouldn't date we could have some fun once in a while but I'm just too lazy (and insecure?). I'm such hard person. When I come here and think what should I write about and then I just end up saying that I wont write much and then I get this amount of text out. That's how blogging should go, my other is shit compared to this, sometimes I even think why do I even write there. Maybe its because I don't wanna quit again when I told everyone that I wanna write.

Only few days and I have to tolerate eight weeks of Swedish, fuck me...

I need my swings already, I cant manage without them. When I swing I can just sink in a fantasy world and drift away from the reality. 

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Mihin häivyit, könsi-poika?

Minne kulki ties?

Muskeleitten Herkules - tuo aito miesten mies

Valkealla ratsullas tahdon ratsastaa

Keskiyö, kun unta en saa - aina haaveet paljastaa

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin ja tingi mä en

Niin vahva ja voimakas, nopea, uhmakas

Se tekee vaikutuksen

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin - ei harhaa lie

Niin rohkea, tarmokas, taitavakin

Ja hän ratsullaan kauas mut vie, kauas mut vie

Salaisimmat haaveet mua öisin kuljettaa

Sankari tuo toiveiden

Voi aivan melkein saavuttaa

Raju-ilman lailla hän ottaa sydämmein

Ja tumma mies tuo lankeemaan minut saa kai polvillein

Ja missä vuoret taivaaseen kohoaa

Mä tahdo sitä kiistää en

Hyväilee hän muo katsellaan - voin vannoa sen

Jos on myrsky tän taukoavan

Kuka ties - rauhoitun

Mutta mies tuo kuin tuli suonissaan on

Mä miehen tahdon

Mä tahdon oikean sankarin - ei harhaa lie

Niin rohkea, tarmokas, taitava niin, ja hän ratsullaan kauas mut vie

Niin vahva ja voimakas, nopea, uhmakas

Se tekee vaikutuksen

Mä miehen tahdon

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