#27 Wear A Heart On Your Cheek

Hello.

Or maybe I should start starting these posts with dear diary since I'm not writing to anyone and this is mainly for me to open up my thoughts and share my opinions publicly. I also changed my layout for a better one. i love the banner, Jay looks so cool and I added that "Sorry I'm a bad boy" text there to make it more personal.

This one is gonna be short. Vili said that he is going to offer Petra a place to stay for Tracon. She was acting a bitch for me while ago so I don't really like her much. I guess we will be fine but still, at least there is no five persons in the same small apartment at the same time, only three. 

Julia and Nea were talking in WhatsApp about something and then Julia said that I don't know something. Like why can't you tell me the same stuff you tell to Julia? I see how you appreciate me, that's why I didn't say anything, just ignored their talk. Don't wanna talk to me, then I wont talk to you. Julia left today to Vaasa and now its just me and Nea and I hope that we will get more close. At least Julia gave me a hug before she left, didn't expect that to happen any time soon but it was really nice. :)

Can I ask why young people don't internet date? I'm in two different places plus in Tinder and I cant find anyone. Only too old men, who are really sweet and they put effort in their relationships, why cant boys be like that too? Or they are ugly or they are assholes using those stupid smileys or not using at all and they seem really lame people. And no one hearts me on Tinder, I think that one guy saw that message I gave him but he didn't reply. Seriously, this is not angsting, no one loves me (not the way that friends and family do) and no one wants to love me cause I'm ugly. Still I have expectations to find someone hot and all these sex fantasies even if I'm insecure about even revealing my body to anyone. What if when they see my body hair they find me disgusting? That's like the worst thing that could happen. I even don't know anyone who's gay in real life, I know one but hes not my type at all and Vili is bi but he always gets crush on girls so I don't think that he will have a boyfriend ever.

For the end, I love Marina & The Diamonds' How To Be A Heartbreaker. When I first saw the music video: turn on.

Love him with tattoos. I hope my boyfriend will have tattoos also.

#26 Swimming With Jay

Welcome.

The following story is a fictional fairytale written by a fan.

Its a story about Korean rapper Jay Park and fanboy (reader).

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There I was, sitting on the backseat of a car while Jay was driving the car. We decided to go a swimming hall together. I suggested it myself because I wanted to see him as naked as possible since I've had crush on him for a while now. Confessing love to a boy from another boy isn't easy, you can never know what is their reaction like, are they going to be alright with that or will they be disgusted by the fact that a friend boy likes him? Its hard to live like that but maybe silence is the best option, ruining this friendship wasn't a choice for me.

We finally arrived to the swimming hall. We took our bags from the car and walked inside, bought ourselves in and went down the stairs to the locker rooms. We looked up some lockers which were available and from a good spot. Jay was the first to take off his shoes and shirt. I could already feel the testosterone run through my whole body and see Jay moving slowly. His darker skin, muscles and tattoos were out of this world.

Jay turned around and looked at me, I quickly turned my gaze somewhere else.

"Hurry up, change your clothes. I want to swim already." said Jay with great enthusiasm while he took off his pants. I could see that he was wearing turquoise colored boxers. My cock started to rise but I had to take off my clothes and change into swimming trunks. Maybe them would tame this beast. I still couldn't take my gaze away from his smooth and masculine body and from those boxers. 

Jay started to rummage his locker and bag and so I saw an opportunity to quickly change my underwear so that he wouldn't notice my erection. I succeeded and so I locked my locker, took my towel, sat down and put my towel on my cock so that I could hide it better. Jay now took off his boxers and I could see his majestic penis. My cock rose up like a rocket and made me really horny. Unfortunately he put on his swimming trunks as fast as he took off his underwear, I still got an experience which I will never forget.

"Are you ready to go?" I asked from Jay with a slight stutter.

"Yeah." answered Jay immediately. Hearing his voice made me even more horny, that could have been one of the voices he makes in bed.

We left our towels on the shelf in the shower area and we went to take a cleaning shower before going into the pools. My shower was across from Jay's. He turned his shower on and went under it, he closed his eyes and started to rub himself so that he wouldn't miss a spot. It felt like he was trying to make me horny so that he could caught me in the act. I quickly fixed my cock's position so that it would be less noticeable.

We first decided to go to the semi warm pool which isn't so deep to warm up. We swam to the corner which was free from people and decided to stay there for a while. We talked about all kinds of things while we were there, then a small silence landed upon us. First I just looked around and then tried to take a peek on Jay's body, then I looked at his eyes and saw that he was looking at me so I quickly turned my eyes away.

"Why you were looking at me?" asked Jay with a sly smile on his face.

"Just because..." I answered and tried to avoid his possible next questions.

Which body part were you looking? Chest? Arms? Cock probably?" asked Jay with even bigger sly smile on his face while he slowly approached me. I decided to move back but I couldn't get very far since the edge came to my way.

I was in the corner, Jay blocked my way with his masculine hands and said "Please, I want to know which part do you like the most."

"Well... if I can say... I would say that everything in you. You're the most perfect looking guy I have ever seen." I confessed to him, now I could only pray for happy ending.

"I think you will like the cock mostly." said Jay with a sexy voice and grabbed my hand and putted in his pants while he put his hand on my swimming trunks. He started kissing me and I started to wank his cock. It felt like heaven.

We stopped kissing so I had my chance to ask what this all meant and Jay answered me with a question, "I think its called crush when a man wants to kiss another man when they wank each other in public swimming hall?"

"I have waited for those words for such a long time that I could cry right now." I said with a bright smile.

"Don't cry, baby. Let hyung make you even happier." answered Jay, then he started kissing me again and moved his arms to my butt and started rubbing it while I did the same thing to him. It was the happiest day of my life. Everything I could wish for was in that moment, I wished that it could have last forever.

"I have a wild suggestion for you. Wanna go to the steam sauna and fuck? I would love to take your virginity right now." asked Jay with a horny tone and with a curious smile.
"I would love to have you inside me." I answered with no hesitation.

We rose up from the pool and walked towards the steam sauna, step by step I got even more hornier and my heart beaded like drum. My cock was hard as a rock about the fact that I will finally loose my virginity to someone who I love in a place where I have fantasized having sex many times.

Shower area before the steam sauna was empty. There wasn't any swimming trunks in the shelves either, that could have only meant that the steam sauna was empty. Jay had already taken off his trunks and he immediately invaded me and took of mine and threw them on a shelf. I looked down and I could see my cock in a full erection, pointing straight forward. Jay's cock was in the same position.

Jay checked me from head to toe and bit his lover lip as an sign of approval that he was ready for action, I have been ready for years. He grabbed my arm and escorted me to the sauna. We sat in the corner just in case if someone would decide to interrupt our hot action.

We started kissing each other while we both wanked each other. Jay moved on and started to kiss my neck, kiss by kiss his lips moved slowly down my body through my nipples and belly all the way to my cock. He decided to do a deep throat. The same moment he did it I moaned for him to let him know I really enjoyed it. He did it couple of times and he then moved on and wanked me while his other hand slide on my body towards my chest, he started rubbing it and my nipples. My moaning just continued on and on.

Jay took a little pause of all the sucking, wanking and rubbing and I decided to take the lead. I made him sit down and spread his legs out so that I could suck his majestic dick and rub his thights, since I found thights very attractive.

"Yeaah, ooh, suck it, uummm fuck yeah, oh yeah." moaned Jay.
I also had to take a pause and Jay then suggested some bareback action. Of course I agreed, that was the most exciting part that I waited to happen. He grabbed my ass with his other hand so that he could aim better his cock into my ass. He started out very slowly, pushed it in slowly and pulled it out slowly. He repeated this few times until it started to feel better and better. We didn't even need any lubricant since we were wet and the steam had soften our muscles.

Jay started to fuck my ass even harder, I felt like I was in heaven receiving heavenly gift from an angel and the moaning told that to Jay.
"Ooohh fuck yeah baby, fuck yeah." Jay shouted out while fucked and fucked me like there was no tomorrow. I could hear his body smacking against my ass, that sound made me even hornier.
"Oooohhh yeaahh..." shouted Jay and his voice tone went lower and lower. I could feel something warm moving inside my ass, it was Jay's sperm. I never imagined that it would feel this nice. Jay pushed couple of times more after ejaculating just to make sure everything got out.

Jay turned me around on my back, grabbed my pelvis and pulled it against his and pushed his cock inside me once again for another roller coaster ride. I wanted to enjoy this moment even more and started wanking myself while I looked at his arms, abs and handsome face. Before I even noticed I had ejaculated myself and the sperm was drifting on my torso. After that I could feel sperm moving inside me again, Jay had ejaculated again. I guess he had an amazing stamina when it came to having sex. Two ejaculations in a short time was really something.

He started rubbing my torso and spreading the sperm all over me. His hands slide down my body and ended on my ass with couple of smacks on it. We both smiled brightly after that hot session. Jay sat up and guided me to sit on him so that his back was against the wall and we were face to face, me sitting on his cock.

"Did you liked the way I took your virginity?" asked Jay with great confidence.
"You took me in every way and I loved it." I answered to him with same confidence. Jay laughed a little bit and turned me around so that my back was against his chest. He then grabbed me and hugged me.

"You make feel really comfortable and I feel happy with you. Its also very nice that our sex goes on with such great trust. You made me the happiest boy on Earth." I said to him while I was holding my tears of joy.

"Well you made me the happiest guy in the universe." answered Jay and hugged me even harder.

#25 Imma Hustlin

Hello.

I was thinking that I could make some changes to this blog because no one reads it and if someone would read in the future they would have already used to this, I don't think that they will go and look up all the old texts. But if no one reads this then why would I write in English? Maybe I'm hoping that someone will read it and even comment. I think that I prefer writing in English because it just seems easier to write in English and it sounds kinda better I guess, I don't know it doesn't matter.

 Now I started even to think why I made that other blog but I wanted to make it because I don't get any response here but so far not even there. And I don't want to show my personal pictures and stuff here because I want to remain anonymous so that I can write everything I want, if I would write stuff that I have wrote here, there would be a lot of arguments between me and some people. But hey I feel that way and I want to express my thoughts on them. Writing here is so much easier because I can say what the fuck I want.

Then some stuff about people. In the English class, we were scrolling down Julia's Facebook and this one guy shared a music video on his wall and I said that he has a problem, meaning that he might be somehow sad and stuff like that. Nea then said that look at your own music (mine). Umm what the fuck gurl? So you are saying that I listen to bad and shitty music? Well earth calls Nea, you're the one here who listens shitty music.

Then we were talking in the group chat and Miia linked an article about a 7 years old boy who makes jewelry and people pay him for those. I said that his parents should give him advice that he should save the money instead of buying those Lego's. Then she was highlighting that part that kids like to buy things themselves. 

Then I said that even some of the money would be nice to save and she was like "yeah.... I dunno". Like wtf? So he should waste all the money and not save any of the money? Then she suggested that maybe his parents save his child benefit money, no way, its the child benefit, they will need that money. Then she said that saving money isn't topical thing for that kid. Well D44 because his parents pay everything. His parents could be wise and save the money for him. Even if he doesn't see the point now cause hes a little kid, he will appreciate it in the future.

Then she suggested another thing like what the fuck are you speculating about their money, there's always the maybe but it wasn't mentioned in the article so don't look at that point of view. And when Henna stepped in the conversation, then Miia started to give some reasonable thoughts on the subject. Of course you have to put me down and argue with me about it, tch, and of course she didn't use any smileys.

And then the last subject. Some Muslim preacher is coming to Finland and he said in Germany that gays should be killed, he was kicked out of the country immediately after that. Get the fuck out of our country, you're welcome here you sick son of a bitch. I hope you get hate on you as much as possible. How is someones sexuality itching your ass huh? And why they are even letting that motherfucker to come to our country?

Freedom of speech is so releasing.

#24 Dad Are You A Girl

Hello.

So yesterday evening my dad started raging about how we don't help, well, he told me or at least I read it that way that he doesn't need my help anymore so I went to my room and my computer. I don't know about my brother tho. Then he just started raging and I was like chill bitch, you told me that you don't need me anymore so you expect me to read your mind if you don't ask for help? Then he said that he won't take me to train station anymore, today morning he did.

Day started with physics where we were split into groups and then other groups. Our group had to figure out stuff about... I can't even remember what it was but something about physics/chemistry safety and stuff like that. Luckily I got the shortest thing to look for. Then we have to teach all the things we wrote about to our first group and they will teach us some other things, yeah I cant wait. I don't even have company for tomorrows lesson cause Julia and Nea will leave for some thing.

At Finnish class we had to make an self-assessment and I gave myself the best grade that I could get. Then my teacher said that I'm a smart kid and that I have good opinions and I should be more active so that others could learn too of my good opinions haha. I also showed Julia my blog and she said that shes disappointed for the layout. Says girl who only makes very boring and simple layouts which at the moment is very ugly, I'm sure that she said it because it was pink and cute looking.

For the last lesson in class, we thankfully had a deputy teacher. So we only had to make a list of possible workplace places and that's it. Rest of the lesson we just were and we took pictures and stuff. Julia brought her camera so we took some photos through whole day, it was nice. I was meant to take my own too but I forgot.

#23 The Second One

Hello.

Tuesday morning started with really sleepy feelings. I woke up in the middle of the night after midnight and I don't even know why. Did I saw a dream or something, did I feel unpleasant because the bed cover was in weird position? Luckily I still had about 6 hours till I had to wake up.

English class was really nice cause I got to listen to music from computer and I didn't have to anything special. But I got totally faded by Nea and Julia, I don't what they were talking about but I guess it was about Nea's friend with who she had something going on. Like you can't talk about that with me? Its not a freaking girl talk subject, I see how much you appreciate me. Well I decided not to give a fuck and started to listen music and completely ignore them. We'll see how me being second choice affect later.

The second English lesson was pretty useless. I answered in this one task for all the questions my teacher asked and I certainly hope that it will be seen in my final grade.

I have to wonder one thing: one of my class mates was raging to this other dude because he didn't give him a pencil. Why you don't have your own? They cost like 20 cents. And they are always "broken" meaning they are tired of school or something. They say that every five minutes and all these other things that they have used way too much that its starting to be really really annoying. And why in the fucking hell are you in this school if you only play computer games and don't pay attention to teaching? Teens these days are such assholes that I even cant. I'm sure someone else would love to take your place. Well I only get two of those annoying idiots to my new class, I hope that those who will be in my class aren't as retarded as my current class.

I wonder why I didn't find Aleksi's name from the list where were written in which class will you be in. I hope that he will come to same class as me so that we would have a bigger chance to get to know each other and I could see him more and hear him talk and stuff like that.

And for the last thing. I am really worried about my chest because my left side feels really weird, like it almost hurts and I guess that it feels harder than the right one. It made me feel really anxious in the train and all I wanted was to gtfo from that train so that I could finally walk. I hope that this weird feeling will pass with time.

Ps. I want my swings back already.

#22 Alrighty Then

Hello.

So yesterday evening I was moving on with starting blogging again in Finnish in my old blog and I asked from Vili does he think that he'll be writing on the blog anymore and he said that he doesn't think so. Then I asked from Miia can I take over the blog so that it would be just mine and of course I can't, because she want to keep it that way because of the memories, not very keep on memories in my opinion.

And Vili was all like "Only yours ._." Well fuck daa, should it be like "I'm the only writer here and you are here for me but hey lets give some credit to this one guy who never wasn't active writer on that blog" and I always had to beg that he would write something. Jesus Christ.

And because she want's to keep those stupid memoirs which she wont remember, maybe once in a year, I can't continue with our reader base, which was 35 readers. Cant stand these idiots. Like I said, not ever again will I co-operate with someone on any kind of project. Even Julia's last update was in early February. Lol you cant even keep up updating your blog without me.

I'm starting to feel little bit anguished because only about two weeks and the we have chemistry and physics tests, and I'm really worried that I wont pass them so I will start reading for them tomorrow and I hope that even something will stay in my head. 

Also because of that I don't know where can I find time to write that fanfiction story about Jay Park, I really wanna share it here already but maybe after the tests or next weekend, I don't know.

And for the end, I watched some Asian porn for my wanks and I cant believe how hard it is to find good Asian porn. I would have wanted them to be more masculine but I could only find skinny boys. And whats up with the censoring their dicks? Asians are also kinda "weak", like they didn't very hard and this one guy was moaning like a horse would have been banging him. They  also don't do much hardcore stuff, only kissing and sucking cock and bareback really gently, I want some hardcore action!

  

#21 Triggerfinger

Hello.

Saturday started out very well. I woke up pretty early which is good so that I don't sleep too long and I wont ruin my sleeping habits. I just realized that my parents make really greasy food. Especially in the mornings, it makes me feel kinda sick that it has so much fat in it. I'm also worried because of my health because in train I have felt something in my chest, I don't know what it is but it doesn't feel nice.

 Even thought I walk 8 kilometers every day (except if my dad drives me to the train station) and I also learn kpop dance covers once in a while I'm still worried. But another good thing about food, my parents have learned to buy pastries from our local shop, such as croissant and stuff like that. Really delicious.

Finally my weekend has been more than just sleeping, eating and being on computer. I learned to dance Rocking till the end cause I didn't finish it last time. I laughed a lot also when I practiced, really fun time. I also got my closet today, finally I have more room for my clothes and not only that small shelf underneath my bed.

I also found again donkeyboy's Triggerfinger, last time I heard it was in radio in car when I waited for my parents to come back from store and I fell in love with the song immediately. Also eating pizza now, we eat it almost every night, another reason to be worried about the health.  

#20 I Hope You're Happy

Hello.

Friday started when my brother came into my room and knocked on my shoulder and asked "Don't you have school today?". I grabbed my phone and looked at the clock and I was like oh shit, then I woke up got ready for school. I didn't even have a chance to eat in the morning.

At least we didn't have to play any stupid games at the Finnish class because we always do it on Fridays, this time making our posters took so much time that we didn't have time to play, luckily. We found a cool geisha picture in a magazine and I wanted to take it but Julia cut it off and glued it to our poster, while she got a picture herself. I took up the magazines number and I tried to look for the picture on internet but I didn't find anything, I will try Tumblr out later. I hope I can find it.

At English class I got kinda upset for Julia because I was listening to 2NE1's Happy and she wanted to listen or watch something else so she stopped it and looked up for the video, even thought I told her that I want to listen Happy.

Funny story in the cafeteria. I don't remember who said it but he/she said that I need a girlfriend because I'm sitting in home too much. I was like "Oh you can wait and wait to see that day". They don't know that I like the hotter gender so I found it very funny, I wonder what are their reactions when they will know.

Then she wanted to listen Hyorin's version of Let It Go and in five seconds she was like nope and took of her headset like wtf woman? And when I asked myself "I wonder if that has some kpop songs" (our teacher was playing music in the class from a website where you could see the lyrics at the same time) and that bitch looked at me like a fucking judging harpy. You listen little bit kpop so why do you look at me like that huh? 

I like that music as much as I like western music so its my fucking choice what kind of music I would want to listen. I don't look at you like a bitch when you say something about your faves so why you look at me cunt huh? It shouldn't bother you in any way. My head explodes because of the stupidity she has in her idiotic head.

I was supposed to go with her to buy new shoes but luckily I avoided that and I could just go home, where my little Korean man was waiting for me. I bought that Suho stand by five euros and its pretty impressive and cute. I didn't like much EXO but seeing that stand and I just got in love with Miracles In December I think that I'm liking them more and more.  

#19 Can't You Stop Being An Ass

Hello.

I woke up on Wednesday really tired because when I went to shower my brother knocked on the door and said that Suits will start and I completely forgot it. Because I had to watch it and it ended really late I couldn't get much sleep.

In school our chemistry and physics teacher came finally back and we could actually learn something and get back to the routines. Good thing was that we had a deputy teacher on that useless job thing lesson. First we just sat there doing nothing but then we decided to outside the classroom to other computers and I finished making my CV.

Then we got back in the class to wait for the lesson to end. Our teacher was really nice because he was really purposeful and didn't let the boys fuck with him. Me and Nea got to laugh really much also.

I also have to mention about this incident which happened at the cafeteria. We went to stand in the line (there is two lines) and we chose the one that's one right and this shitty teacher who taught us once started to complain that he was in the line but he was standing in the middle between of the lines and said that he would choose the line which goes on faster. Like what the fuck asshole?

Choose one of them and stay in that fucking line. You cant just bypass because you are waiting for a shorter line, dick. We decided just let him go first and not make a scene about it, tho it would have been nice to say back to that crappy teacher. Well we talked shit about him at the table afterwards so.

#18 Like A Puppy In A Box On A Plane

Hello.

We had our last verb test on English and I successfully managed to use a pony, I took a photo of the verbs with my phone and looked all the answers from there. Its not that I'm bad at English I just wanna good number, that's all and I'm too lazy to study and I can't remember all of them.

We also had a deputy teacher on chemistry and holy hell she was a bad teacher we were supposed to write some kind of chart but she didn't show us what we had to write and it was just stupid so we all just played with our phones or something like that, such waste of time.

At the second English class we didn't do almost nothing and we listened some kpop songs with Julia. I made her listen 2NE1's Ugly and she didn't like it much and said that it was namby-pamby song. I think its a very powerful song and I can relate to that song, I thought that she would have relate to that song also.

I read my friends blog and she wrote about "lesser's", I don't know if they have an English name but they are some kind of vampire killers from a book. And I would really want some of their qualities:

They smell like baby powder.

As they grow older, all of their hair will whiten.

They don't eat or drink.

I don't know how baby powder smells like but I assume its not a bad smell so I wouldn't have to worry about being smelly. And the reason why I would want to be one is because their hair whitens. White hair would be cool and I could easily dye it and my body hair wouldn't be so notable, can I be one please? And I assume that they don't have to eat or drink but I would eat and drink all the good stuff still.

#17 The Cold Never Bothered Me Anyway

Hello.

Monday started out well, I wasn't tired or anything even if I slept only for like six hours. It wasn't nice to see that outside was -15 degrees, I had to take out my long underwear (I don't know how to call them) and put them on so that I wouldn't freeze outside. Luckily I could only put my long sleeve shirt and light jacket so I didn't feel hot but also not cold. Except my hands and face froze.

School was just regular, we started up by looking jobs which we could apply for and stuff about CV etc. This course is pretty much waste of time. We had a deputy teacher in physics and he was a good teacher, usually deputies are not good teachers but he was luckily. We ended the day with the most useless course you could possibly imagine. Talked about CV in that course too and just ugh.

I also got to know my new and last timetable for this year. We have way too much marketing and if that teacher will make us write another "learning diary" I'm gonna shoot someone. We also have English again, which is nice, I like English but we also have Swedish and boy oh boy how I hate that freaking language and that teacher is so annoying.

And its sales Swedish which in my experience is harder than the regular basic Swedish course. We also have a course about shops environment, I don't know what that is but I hope its not hard. We have short days on Monday and Tuesday but we get to go later to school on Wednesday and Thursday but we also will leave later. We will at least have two exams and I hope that is only those two.

#16 Just Go Away

Hello.

When I woke up on Saturday I grabbed my phone and started to scroll Twitter. It didn't take long till I saw pictures and stuff about how winter came back. I looked all the way from my bed to window which is in the other side of the room, and even if I'm pretty blind I could see from the trees that snow was all over the place.

I was just getting used to semi warm weathers and sunshine and colors and tarmac and then all sudden God jerks the fuck off his dick and aimed towards Finland and here we are now. I was hopeful that I could soon go and swing after a long time and listen to new music which I haven't listened before but no. I want to go on a weekend at late to swings and swing for a really long time.

My friends also talked about this one subject which I hate: shaving. Sara was all terrified because she thought that Japanese don't shave. Then she was told that they do. But why is it such a big deal? First of all, Japanese aren't even that hairy and most of the Japanese look good with body hair.

How can they always drift to talk about that subject? This gives me a much bigger reason to not join them if they will go to cottage on summer because it has no shower and I won't do it in a lake because I'm sure that there won't be no privacy and its also forbidden + I don't wanna shave in a fucking lake. 

#15 Green Light

Hello.

This school week was really nice. On Wednesday we had to do a fake job interview with my friends to our teacher and it was laughing like a maniac through the whole interview. I don't remember the last time I laughed so much.

This week YouTube went down for a little while, well only the searching thing didn't work and everyone had to complain about it. Like you cant manage a while without the searching thing? At least you could see your subscriptions and the searching thing was back in game the same evening it went down.

I also decided to grow my hair like Minho used to have, so kawaii. Its gonna take some time and while the growing process I want to straight my hair because I don't like my curly hair, we'll see how it looks like when its taller but maybe I can fix it if I straight it little bit.

In school today we had a little quiz about America and me and Julia slayed everyone in that game, as an award we gotta chocolate bar. It was also nice in Finnish class when we were supposed to guide each other through the class without bumping into anything and Tomi hold my hand and I got to hold his hand when we guided each other, it was really nice.

Little bit of music again for the end. Today was the debut of Korean hip hop boyband TROY and I've had been waiting for this a long time. Mostly because of him in the picture, Jaewoong. He looked in an interview video like Minho and very muscular and sexy and the video just gave me eyegasm's. He is so fuckin hot.

#14 Viking

Hello.

The week started up pretty well. Monday I watched Batman Returns since it was on TV and I had really hard times choosing what to watch since season 3 of Revenge  started at the same time as Batman. The Batman movie was really good, in my opinion it was better than the first one which included Joker.

Season one of Vikings also ended and I gotta say that I didn't like that show at all. It was too boring and the plot was really lame, I didn't connect whit any of the characters and their porn wasn't really hot. But I have to give them a thumbs up for showing cock, you don't see much of that in TV even thought you can always see women full naked but never see a man's mighty dick, what a racism.

Today at school Julia was complaining about how we don't ever wait for her at the train station but she and Nea almost never wait for me when I pack my stuff, so what are you complaining? People only complain nowadays and are sad, people are too weak.

My crush at school called Aleksi, I have talked about him, was "wearing" his hair up and not down as he usually does, doesn't he have an eye for looks? It doesn't look so good when his hair is up, put it down, its much cuter! I also walked right pass him today, twice actually, it made me happy.

We also had a irregular verb test today, I cheated in it by using my phone, I took pictures of the words and took almost all of the answers from there. We also got to know our training programs, I got to be in the same class as Julia and Nea with customer service and selling program. I already now few of my classmates who will join and who will not, I just hope that as many of the monkeys will not be in the same class.

#13 Too Far Away

Hello.

Fridays school day was very boring, at least I didn't have any hard subjects but I was alone almost the whole day because my friends didn't feel well so they left me all alone. At least one of them returned back for lunch so I didn't have to eat alone.

I didn't like the Finnish class, we had to tape a paper to our backs and write positive things on each others backs, I got few reasonable comments. I wrote few too, I wrote to this one Vietnamese girl that she has a lovely laughter and I also wrote to this other girl that shes beautiful. I wrote to many more comment but they were all like "nice person" etc. I would have wanted to write to one boys back that he is cute but I decided not to.

After school I went to Helsinki to meet my friend. I used this "small" train that stopped at way too many stops, those that aren't the safest if I can say so. Won't use those trains any more that's for sure. Then I continued by subway and met them. It was so nice to hug my friend, I really like to hug her.

We went to this other friend and we just hanged out there, we watched 2NE1 Running Man episode - it was so much, and music videos and we ate food and stuff. Then I had to leave for my train and my friend escorted me to the subway. We walked hand by hand, it was so cute and made me want a boyfriend even more.

It was cool to be in Helsinki so late, when I walked at Central Railway Station and listened to Lovey Dovey I felt like I was the baddest in the place then I realized that my train will leave soon and started to run. I made it and luckily my dad picked me up at train station.

#12 Must Be Something

Hello.

Waking up isn't very easy for me, when the alarm goes on and I shut it down I just instantly want to keep on sleeping and just lay in my bed but when I finally get up I don't feel so tired. You can tell that when Gentleman is on TV and I start to dance it + also some killer moves while Ducktales intro is playing.

I finally learned how to dance Teen Top's Rocking all the way to the DJ part. Can't believe that I struggled so much while learning it and now I dance it like a pro. I also watched a document about Finnish hockey player Teemu Selänne, it was really nice to get to know him more, hes such a cool guy and he has a hot son.

I also watched an animation movie called Tale Of Despereaux. I didn't quite catch the plot and there was a thing that they didn't explain or I just missed something, weird movie still. And I don't want to change all the bed sheets ever again. My mom also made an Facebook account - oh god. And isn't that nice that my nose started to bleed blood, it hasn't bleed in a long time and now it did.

I had a good chance to go to ask Aleksi is he gay or not but I just didn't have balls for it thought I felt like what ever I just go and ask but still. I also heard his voice, its pretty deep. My stalker level is 100 for gods sakes.

Surprisingly I knew how to do the chemistry tasks without having any big troubles and new manga is also nice to buy. I was also supposed to talk with my mom about the trip to Moscow and Teen Top's concert but we haven't talked at least yet.