#48 Maybe

Hello.

Today my dad gave a ride for me to train station so I didn't have to go by bike but when I was going home, it started to rain, not much but still. I didn't even know that he was home but when I was really close to my house I saw his car turning from our street so I jumped in and we went to buy burger meals, I love it. He should have told me that he could pick me up tho.

In school then, at our first class we managed to do our task more forward since there was only me and Julia in the beginning because Nea and Julia always have to gossiping about everything and so our task will be forgotten and our progress is slow. Nea got "back together" with Tommi and I don't know why, she was getting to know this cute guy Konsta and now she has to break his heart by telling shes not interested in him anymore, well she cant be.

At the end of  Swedish class I said that I would copy the homework from Julia and she said that "No you won't" and that sometimes you have to be a bitch. How many times have I saved your ass by telling you the answer when you didn't have the interest to follow, well you think your the baddest bitch but I can play this game too. Then at the last lesson we did our last task from internet so we went to practice for our video and we read it through one time and oh, the clock was perfectly 1 pm so of course their trains/buses will leave soon so its a perfect time to skip the rest of the class and leave me alone for one hour. I went back to the class and started scrolling Facebook, the teacher nagged about it so I explained that I don't have nothing else to do and that we were supposed to practice but they left, so he apologized which was a nice thing to do. I guess that the teacher put an absence to them, which I hope, and that he will talk to them about it.

Now I have to read for the word test... Jesus.

#47 I Hate Humans

Hello.

I haven't wrote anything in few days because Miia was here and I didn't have time to write. She came here with the same train as I, the weather was bad as usually. We basically watched TV whole Thursday, I don't remember doing anything special except watching Eurovision. On Friday I went to school and then came back home to eat burger meal, we went out to help my mom to carry some bags. The weekend we went to the store to buy some goodies for Eurovision Final and I also bought manga, we went to swing and also went out middle of the night to this bus station place where we filmed few dance videos. Before we went there we learned 15 seconds from a choreography by Sistar19 and the song was Gone Not Around Any Longer. It was so much learning those 15 seconds. Then she left on Sunday and I could get back to my routines. I couldn't do any exercise like abs and stuff cause she was here, so I weakened down a lot. I remember that I could do at least 30 abs, maybe even 40, and now I could only do 20 so I have catching up to do.

My favorites of the Eurovision 2014 would be:

1. Romania

2. Poland

3. Greece

4. Finland

5. Austria

Now for the last thing to say. The amount of hate that Conchita gets for being who he is upsetting and in general for every people. Like it gets me so mad like why cant you just let people be, how does it itch your ass what other person does or likes like I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN BE SUCH AN ASSHOLE CAN YOU JUST DIE I CANT STAND PEOPLE LIKE THIS. This subject is way too big for me to process so I just simply leave like this.

Actually one more thing to say is that I'm getting worried over by these few last school weeks since I have to read for an word test and then there's also English and Swedish tests, and also we need to make some kind of presentation over something stupid and we basically need to memorize it... This is shit.

    

#46 Time To Tone

Hello.

When I was at shower probably last weekend, I cleaned me up very well since my impurities reduced. It was really nice to notice that my face is going to a better direction. I also washed my cock better, I put some shampoo in it and started to do the wanking move and flushed. Smegma goes off better when using some kind of soap.

I was watching Eurovision last night until my brother came into my room and said that Suits is starting, he didn't want to screenshot it from computer (now that I think why I didn't tell him to watch it through stream...). So I tried to watch Eurovision from computer but it lagged so badly that I just gave up and was angry rest of the time.

Yesterday when we were in our last class, I was listening to 2NE1 from computer and Nea asked what we were doing. Julia answered for me with a really bitchy voice "Hes listening 2NE1". What the fuck gurl? How is that such a big thing for you what I listen? You listen to kpop too so whats the problem? I don't judge your music choices even tho I don''t like it. Why you always have to judge my music taste? You better realize that that's what I listen and if its not ok with you then fuck off. Its not even the first time she was like this.

 I also decided to start exercising a little bit. I decided that I want abs or at least tone my torso, so now I try to do abdominal moves every day as much as I can but now I guess I cant do it because brother is home before me and I wanna do it alone, also Miia is coming over for few nights. Maybe I can do them in the bathroom... Well I hope I get some kind of abs in some point. Then maybe I can get a boyfriend.

 Today was really easy day, I did a test which for I didn't read at all cause I didn't want to buy the book but I didn't even need it and I guess I did pretty good. But after school the trains were late and I went out to wait my train, there came a train and I hopped in. I looked out the window and wondered how the view wasn't familiar at all. Then they announced the next stop. I was in the wrong train. I hopped out, I had to get to the other dock but I couldn't find a place where to get there so I decided to follow this dude and walk a cross the rails. Then I waited a train that took me back to Kerava and I got finally home.

#45 Meet The Blogger

Bold what’s true about you

I am under 18.
I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my “pyjamas”.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
l am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I am a little shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings. (I used to. yay medication)
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt. (I used to)
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Finished college/uni
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a colouring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the colour:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blond
Strawberry blond
Multicoloured
Red

My eyes are:
Brown
Dark brown
Blue
Green
Hazel
Light brown
Black
Gray

People sometimes label me as:
Slut
Boyish
Colorful
Ugly
Nerd
Other

Some of my biggest fears are:
Spiders/other insects
Slimy things
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Large animals
Small animals
Open spaces
Lightning
Thunder
Tornadoes
Clustered holes
Bodily fluids
Corpses

I have:
A friend with benefits
A television in my room
Good grades
My own car
Parents who are still married
A dog
A cat
A game console

#44 Old Times

Hello.

Henna shared a picture on ask where there was many of our friends since someone asked who she misses. There were few not as close friends which I don't care about, then she put up picture of Paula and was like "you! <3" then me: "this ihq"

Miia: "and her :3 <3"

Petra: "this person ;_; <3"

Vili: "him too ;_; <3 <3"

Like I was the only one who was left without a heart, she showed more love to them. She and Vili haven't even been so close these past times except now when they constantly talk in private chat. I don't like it at all when people, especially Vili, say that I wanna tell you something or private --->. Like why cant you speak in the public? I understand if its something related to that fic and they don't want to reveal anything but if its something else then why not talk to me? Vili haven't talked to me in a long time.

Now I finally fixed my phones thing, my GPS wasn't on so that why Grindr and Tinder didn't work. So far only old and fat people have contacted me (2) so no difference there. I went again to Planet Romeo and Qruiser so maybe I could finally find someone, maybe just someone nice who can just fuck me or something but I only attract old and fat people and I'm also scared of STD's and I want to get to know that person so that I can be relaxed with him. Well see how things turn out.

Someone in Twitter wants me to come with him to Skype so we can jerk off together. I said yes without any hesitation even tho I have never liked it because its so unpleasant and I don't jerk off that way. I told him I would make an new account and let him know then but I guess I will just say no. This reminded me of Lauri, a guy who I met in Qruiser long time ago when I was younger and hornier, he was supposed to take my virginity. We spoke many times in Messenger when it was still working. We even used cam, I remember how he was at work and raised his shirt up for me. Maybe I should contact him again...

#43 Third Time Speaks The Truth

Hello.

The day of alcoholic people is here, Vappu. So far I haven't seen anyone post a status that is complaining about hangover, you know what you're doing so don't complain about the consequences biatch. I went to the store with dad to hunt down the Soul Eater part 11, I didn't find it in S-Market so I went to the R-kioski to look for it, I asked them if they had the part 11 but no. So I missed that one, now I have to buy it on internet or from a Con. I was thinking about this manga stuff. I could not buy last months things so that I could buy them from Desucon but I don't know... why this has to be so hard. I cant wait to get a job so that I don't have to rely on parents with stuff like this.

About this one course that I have now, we were supposed to buy this handout and its the shittiest thing ever. I was doing one task and it said look from pages 14-18 and the answer was on page 11... Like are you fucking kidding me? I looked through those 5 pages three times and then the fact is like this. Could you fucking make proper assignment for fucks sakes? When I was tired of looking up the answers I started to scroll my phone for some porn and the teacher complained about me using my phone. What else can I do if I get frustrated and tired of looking, I found the answer later tho.

Nea is probably in now with bad relationship with Tommi, I think I am little gleeful about that. She tho now is getting to know Konsta, a guy from our school, and apparently he is sending some sweet messages to her. I saw Konsta on the first school day and I drooled him cause he was so cute and now he may have something with Nea. I guess that Julia and Nea wont talk about nothing but their boyfriends. Tho I am very exited to know what will happen if they start dating.

Now I'm on a little vacation since I decided to skip Friday's lessons cause I have a free day on Thursday so why would I go to school when I even wont miss anything and I get to skip one Swedish lesson. I am like the most active student in my class so I deserve a little skip. After this vacation there's school left only 15 days when you take out weekends, free days and the last week since its more doing nothing, cant wait! Miia is also coming here for 4 days next week so we'll see what will happen then.

One more rage. I am tired of Instagram's shit, they deleted my account again, my third account and there even wasn't that bad nudity. You could not see cocks, only abs, asses and underwear guys. They don't even warn you that they will delete it if I wont make any changes, they just say that we deleted something but they don't tell what. Then I cant even restore it and I cant use the e-mail again or the account name... Fuck you Instagram. I don't know if I'll make another one with only like underwear guys and stuff, minimum porn cause I have to make up everything and collecting followers is so slow compared to my first channel where I got +100 followers over night.

Now I see some angst posts on Tumblr as I expected from Nea. :D

#42 Questions Again

1. selfie
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2. what would you name your future kids?
Well boys would definitely be Tuukka and/or Robin, at least those are my favourite boy names, also Lauri is really nice. I don't really know about girls, Chaerin would be cool but its a Korean. Maybe Sanni or Jannika.

3. do you miss anyone?
No.

4. what are you looking forward to?
That the first school year is over.

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
I don't think that someone can always make me smile but maybe my brother gets to closest.

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
No, its actually really easy for me.

7. what was your life like last year?
I definitely knew less about everything, I was more unstylish and I dunno really.

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
Maybe, at least I cant remember.

9. who did you last see in person?
Well my brother but if him then Julia.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes.

11. are you listening to music right now?
Actually I'm not but I guess its because I'm tired and I'm going to sleep soon so it would probably just annoy me.

12. what is something you want right now?
To get rid of my body hair.

13. how do you feel right now?
Pretty normal, tired.

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
Few weeks ago maybe when Julia left to Vaasa oh wait no my mom hugged me yesterday.

15. personality description
I am happy person most of the time and positive and I have good sense of humor. I know what I stand for and I wont let anyone to change that. I am patient. I have strong opinions and i like to bring them up. I am pretty shy, I don't really talk to people I don't know so well mostly because I cant figure out anything to talk about. I don't get mad easily, I might seem mad but usually I don't feel any anger in me, except if my brother is annoying me.

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?
Yes.

17. opinion on insecurities.
You should definitely try to do something for them and maybe talk to your friends about them (which I don't do) so that they don't hit your insecurities.

18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?
Maybe something but in some points I'm satisfied how the things are now than a year ago.

19. have you ever been to New York?
No.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?
That would be Rita Ora - I Will Never Let You Down.

21. age and birthday?
I am 16 and I was born 9.9.1997

22. description of crush.
I don't have on right know (surprisingly) but let me tell about his one boy. In my opinion he was perfect: he had nice hair, he was good looking and slim. He had just a little body hair like on his legs (I guess he had in armpits and on cock too). He was really smart and good at school and the same time athletic, and also funny.

23. fear(s)
Spiders and afterlife.

24. height
182 cm.

25. role model
Girls of 2NE1 are my biggest inspiration and role models but I also look up to many many more celebrities.

26. idol(s)
I have too many of them but lets mention Teen Top, Colin Farrell, Justin Bieber, 4Minute, BIGBANG etc. etc.

27. things i hate
Angsting, stupid people, people who treat me badly.

28. i'll love you if...
You make feel good.

29. favourite film(s)
Eight Below, Elektra, The Rise Of The Guardians, many many many animation movies etc.

30. favourite tv show(s)
Prison Break, Lost, The Vampire Diaries, Revenge, Glee, etc.

31. 3 random facts
I have never had an crush on girl.
I see porn stuff in public very often.
I love watermelon.

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?
Girls because kpop and Japan fans.

33. something you want to learn
To speak Russian and draw.

34. most embarrassing moment
I'm sure that there is a more embarrassing moment but let me tell two. We were watching X Factor and I said with great confidence that Melanie Amaro will perform with Fifth Harmony cause its her song that they were singing but it was Demi Lovato. That song, Give Your Heart A Break, is nowadays one of my favs. Then when I was younger, we were still living in Helsinki so its was before 6th grade. My brother acted that he went out but he only opened up the door and closed it so I thought he left and I went to a gayporn Christmas calendar and he saw me go there and laughed, then he really left. He probably told everything to Elias cause that's what he does...

35. favourite subject
Probably English but history is a good two.

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?
Live in Japan, be a singer, learn how to draw and also get rid of most of my body hair, sorry had to take four.

37. favourite actor/actress
Paul Walker, Colin Farrell, Chris Hemsworth were first to come in mind.

38. favourite comedian(s)
I don't really have one.

39. favourite sport(s)
Badminton and tennis.

40. favourite memory
School trip to France and Switzerland.

41. relationship status
Single and will be for a long time.

42. favourite book(s)
I only read comics.

43. favourite song ever
2NE1 - I Am The Best.

44. age you get mistaken for
I haven't really heard any.

45. how you found out about your idol
2NE1 on Kids react.

46. what my last text message says
"You don't answer".

47. turn ons
Sweatpants, caps, tattoos, thighs, men.

48. turn offs
Black men, hairy, ugly.

49. where i want to be right now
In the bed with a boyfriend.

50. favourite picture of your idol
Gonna throw it in the end.

51. starsign
Virgo (Virgin) and proud of it!

52. something i'm talented at
Learning maybe..?

53. 5 things that make me happy
Music, men, porn, fantasies, yummy food.

54. something thats worrying me at the moment
How do I survive this last timetable.

55. tumblr friends
Few of them have it but they don't really use it much these days, actually at all.

56. favourite food(s)
Bacon pasta, sushi, spinach crepe, cakes and stuff like that.

57. favourite animal(s)
Ducks and pandas.

58. description of my best friend
My brother is almost like me the end.

59. why i joined tumblr
Because people wanted me to join.

60. ask me anything you want
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